Alone

                                    

                                          
Day 10 with no more Yuki. I think I'm recovering okay, but I still don't know yet. Its hard to let someone go so fast, and especially since I've been "obsessed" for so long. I have nothing to do in my free time, which I have lots of now. I'm currently sitting in my prison cell. Its not really a prison, it just feels that way. 
                          
I have no love, no Yuki, no nobody. I've tried to kill myself 3 times now, but Nurse Kiki always stops me. I want to just leave this world, but I know I'll just start over once again. I don't want a fresh start. I just want to end it all. I don't care if I go to heaven or hell, its all the same for me.
                          
Its away from here.
                          
Nurse Kiki barges in like she usually does without knocking. I mean, what am I gonna be doing anyway? It shouldn't bother me. 
                          
"Good morning Ga-"
"Don't call me that, its Yuno" I guess that crazy look in my eye must have shown through, because she backed off a little and hung her head in shame. Nurse Kiki is a newbie here at the institution, but she's been assigned to me for some odd reason. 
                          
I'm crazier than anyone could ever be. I tried to kill my own love... I tried to kill Yuki... I didn't want him to see the real me...
                          
Nurse Kiki looked up, for I had tears in my eyes. She stopped pouring the milk in my morning rainbow cereal and placed a hand on my shoulder. I flinched but didn't back down. My hand grabbed the spoon from the tray and flung my arm around to make contact with Nurse Kiki's stomach. 
                          
She made an "Oof" sound, but slowly took the spoon away from me. 
                          
"Now now, don't do that, calm your urges to inflict pain" she looks down at me as I sit in a chair beside a small table in my cell. 
                          
I couldn't believe myself, A SPOON? What the hell was that gonna do? Maybe that's why I'm treated like a baby, so sharp objects can stay clear of me. Did I mention that guards around my cell have to wear bullet proof vests? Its all because of me. 
                          
My thoughts are interrupted as she places the bowl in front of me with a half of an orange beside it. 
                          
"Eat up, Yuno, today's a big day" 
"What's today?"
"Your outdoor tour of the city!" She says a little too excited. I think she was just ready to get me out of her hair for a day. 
                          
"Yay, that sounds like so much fun" I say with sarcasm, as I dip my spoon into the cereal. I like to hold the small loops under the milk until there are no bubbles left coming up. Its like watching my own last breathing moments I'll have soon enough. 
                          
Soon enough.
                          
"I think you'll have great fun, you'll get to go out and look around, and just relax you know?" I look down at the chrome table and see my blank expression. 
                          
"I don't know how to have fun anymore, how to smile, how to laugh"