Chapter 38

                                    

                                          
Sydney's POV 
                          
It's been 2 days and Nash and Hayes have made good progress. 
                          
Sammy and Aaron are out and resting just taking it easy. 
                          
We canceled our show for tonight and adding it on after the one in two days. 
                          
I haven't left the hospital once. Not to eat or sleep. I've stayed here not leaving or moving. And I still have random outbursts that have become common. 
                          
Cam hasn't left my side and I'm so thankful to have him. 
                          
Matt's left a few times after I convinced him to go to the hotel and sleep and eat. 
                          
The only thing I've eaten since we got here 3 days ago was half of a sandwich, but I really have no appetite right now. I've barely slept and I have barely talked. 
                          
The guys come in and out and they all keep trying to get me to eat and sleep or go do something with them to take my mind off of things but I ignore them and continue to stare at the door waiting for Nash and Hayes to walk through them and be okay. 
                          
It's currently 1:30am and Cam and Matt are both asleep and the rest of the guys are back at the hotel. 
                          
I got up and walked down the long hallway going to the room where both Nash and Hayes were. 
                          
They've been sleeping a lot so I haven't really been able to talk to them and if they were awake it was short visits because doctors had to run tests. 
                          
I walked into the room and sat in the chair I had set in between their beds. 
                          
"Please be okay you two. I'm not ready for you guys to leave. I need you. I'm a mess. Please." I whispered as tears streamed down my face 
                          
I just sat there looking around the room and  getting excited whenever one of them would move, hoping they'd wake up for a bit. 
                          
I started to notice little things that bugged me. 
                          
I got up and fixed the cards on the table that the boys got for Nash and Hayes. I fixed the flowers in the vases, and I refolded all the blankets that the nurses left. 
                          
Once I reorganized everything I sat back down. 
                          
I felt my phone buzzing and saw that I had lots of Twitter notifications. 
                          
I haven't been on since we got to the hospital. 
                          
I decided to post a video of vines that Nash and Hayes took. I captioned it 'I miss these boys smiling faces. Please get through this you two. I love you guys to death and I need you. I miss those smiles and I miss your hugs. Love you. @hayesgrier and @nashgrier' video at top 
                          
I posted it then turned my phone off ignoring the notifications. 
                          
I stared at the clock and noticed that I was in there for 2 hours already. 
                          
I heard someone walk in and I looked up to see Cam in the doorway. 
                          
"I figured you'd be in here." He said walking over to me "please don't cry." He said as he wiped the tears that I didn't realize we're streaming down my face 
                          
"I need them Cam." I said softly as he brought me into a hug.
                          
"I know kiddo, I know." He replied hugging me back tightly