Voice

                                    

                                          
Hellllllloo
                          
I need some advice and I know you guys give awesome advice. I love you and you're all awesome. 
                          
My insecurity of my voice drives me insane. Like people don't really hear my natural voice much anymore and I cringe when I hear bits of it in conversations. 
                          
But the part I can't deal with is singing. I don't think anybody has actually heard me sing. Not my friends or family or strangers. When I "sing" it's more just a monotonous drawl in rhythm to the beat. When I really sing which is rare... Well, I don't even know what that sounds like. But the thing is that I love singing. I wish I could sing, even when I'm home alone. I cannot bring myself to let sound out of my mouth above a barely audible whisper even when I'm playing a song I love with all my heart and I'm home alone. I want to sing and I want to hear my voice but I can't. I'm not even sure if this makes sense to anyone but I need help with this. 
                          
Does anyone know how to deal with insecurities this big? Please? 
                          
Love ya,
Carter
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