Weak heart

                                    

                                          
It's been almost 2 years since I started dating Jonghyun. We've had it a bit tough lately, since I have my heart problems.
I know what you think, how is he? Is he good in bed? Let me just stop you there. I know that there are always those questions, and I have a lot to say about him.
                          
He is the most lovingly man I have ever been with. He is so sweet and so caring.
                          
 He knows about my heart problems and I know that since he's a man he has his desires... And I have mine, but we're, how do you say it, afraid?
                          
I've never done it, and he is so afraid that he will hurt me. He knows that if I overwork it might get worse, but it's so hard to not be there for him when he needs it. When he needs me. Especially now when I see him I can feel how all I want is to make him satisfied, to make me satisfied.
                          
*Author's Pov.*
                          
"Wendy, what should I do?" ___ asked her best friend as she hugged her legs. They where sitting on her bed as they talked about her relationship with Jonghyun.
"You're asking me? I don't even have a boyfriend yet." Wendy sighed as she crossed her arms over her chest.
"But why not just ask him if he wants to and then just go for it?" ____ looked up at her like she was the crazy-cat-lady.
                          
"What? So what should I say? 'Oppa, I want to do it, I'm so horny and I need you. Let's do it now.'?" ___ said and Wendy smiled.
"Why not? It's a start." ___ threw a pillow at Wendy, embarrassed.
"Are you crazy? He would break up with me! He would think I was possessed by a horny slut that died the other day and wants more than what she can get from the other side." ___ said as she rested her head on her knees.
"Well, I don't know. I have nothing else on my mind that you can say." Wendy sighed as she took her bag and stood up. "But I have to go now. I promised to eat with mom today. Bye!" She smiled and waved.
"Bye." ___ waved at her friend as she walked away.
                          
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"Yah. You have to help me." Jonghyun said to the two guys beside him. "I can't keep it in anymore... But I don't want to hurt her." He sighed as he looked at his coffee that stood on the table in front of him.
"What?! You guys haven't done it yet?- Ouch!" Key shouted as Minho kicked him under the table.
"You shouldn't shout it to the world." Minho said, as he looked calm while Key shot daggers at him with is eyes.
"So, what do you need us to help you with?" Minho continued, ignoring the older that was mentally killing him in his mind.
"I don't know what to do... I mean I love her, with all my heart. I-I doesn't know how much longer I can hide my desires for her." Jonghyun explained as he looked down. He wasn't really the shy person or anything, Minho and Key where his friends but he really didn't know what to do.
                          
"So you're saying that you'll no longer be able to hold in your sexual desires, and... what?" Key asked. "So if you can't hide those thoughts then what?" He continued.
"Then I might hurt her... If I can't control myself then I might hurt her." Jonghyun explained, still looking at his coffee that he hasn't touched.
"And I don't ever want to hurt her." He sighed and Minho looked up.
"Have you talked to her? What if she's having the same thoughts? I mean, girls have them too just not so intense."
"You mean she might want to do it with him?" Key asked. "She might. If she's been the way he has been then yes." Minho said as he pointed at Jonghyun.
"Like I've been?" Jonghyun asked, wondering what they where talking about.
                          

"You've been distant, and only thinking about her health. If she's been distant and maybe, I don't know, complaining about you worrying about her health, than she might want to take it to the next level." Jonghyun nodded.
"Yeah... She's been like that... Telling me not to worry about it if she's having heartaches or not..."
                          
Key and Minho nodded their heads.
"She totally wants it man." Key smirked as he patted Jonghyun's shoulder. "She wants it."
                          
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___ sat on her room as she chewed her nails. She didn't know what to do. She didn't know if she was going to take Wendy's advise and just go for it, or not. She was scared that Jonghyun would hate her, but then again she knew he was a man with hormones. She also knew that if they would be in that situation and she started to breath uneven, he would stop and ask how she's feeling.
                          
All she wanted was for him to stop worrying about her health and do what he wants, what she wants. Nothing was impossible for her, in her eyes. She was being loved for the one she was, and she loved him for the on he was. Nothing else would matter to her; all she needed was to give him the only thing she could give him after all he has given her. Her virginity.
                          
Suddenly her phone made a sound, telling her that she has gotten a message. She slung herself to the other side of the bed and grabbed her phone.
"Do you want to hang at my place and watch some movies? // Jong." She smiled as she texted back to him.
"Sure, when can I come? // Bunny." She smiled more as she wrote the nickname he had given her.
"Wanna come now?" She smiled as she stood up. "I'll be there soon!" She texted back as she ran out from her room.
                          
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They both sat in the sofa, Jonghyun having his arm around ___'s shoulders. A dark blush covering her face as she tried to stay focus on the screen without getting those dirty thoughts. Jonghyun had been the one choosing the movie; she didn't know that he would choose 50 shades of gray of all the movies he had standing in his bookshelf.
All she could think of was to be able to do all those things with Jonghyun. She felt herself getting hornier by the second as another sex-scene appeared on the screen.
She turned her head to look at Jonghyun, only to see that he was looking at her.
                          
"Jong..." She whispered with the most seductive voice she could, eyeing him with dark eyes.
                          
"____" Her name came out as a groan as he smashed his lips on hers. How happy she was when she noticed how rough he was. He bit her lip, making her gasp, allowing himself to explore her wet carven. Enjoying every last minute of it she started to moan into the kiss as he felt his hand push her to lie down.
                          
"I love you so much." Jonghyun said in between his kisses that trailed down to her neck. She tangled her fingers in his hair as he did his wonders with his lips.
"J-Jong... I ca-can't wait... More." She breathed out as she looked up at him. At the sight of her he immediately stripped off her shirt before crashing his lips on hers again. Groping her breast as he chewed on her lip.
                          
____'s heart where beating faster than the speed of light. She couldn't feel the aching feeling she always would when her hear beat like this; all she could feel was love.
                          
Suddenly Jonghyun stood up, making ___ scared. Was he afraid of hurting her, was he going to stop? She heaved a sigh as she saw him throw off his shirt, followed by his pants, leaving him in boxers where she could see the tent that was built by his member. She gasped as her shorts flew into one of the corners in the room.
                          
"There's no going back now." Jonghyun said as he hovered over her in the sofa. "I wasn't going to back out. Not ever." ____ said as she pulled him down for a kiss.
                          
Moans filled the room as time went by.
"I'm sorry." Jonghyun said as he dried the tears away from her eyes. "I know it hurts. But I will make it go away." He said as he kissed her and started to move. After a while all ___ could feel was pleasure.
"M-more~" She moaned as she sunk down into the sofa. Jonghyun groaned as he fucked her harder, slamming himself in and out of her. ___'s eyes rolled back when he hit that special spot. There wasn't much she could do except for moan and scream from the pleasure. Everything got blurry as she started to see black dots.
                          
"O-oppa... I-I.. Ah~" She screamed as she felt the unfamiliar knot in her stomach, and Jonghyun smirked as he started to thrust harder if possible.
"M-me too. I can't h-hold it anymore." He grunted, as his thrusts got sloppier.
                          
"I-I'm gonna cum!" Jonghyun groaned as he came inside her, making her head being pressed down into the sofa as she came right after.
                          
"That was awesome." He breathed out as he looked at ___. A giggle left her throat as she looked at him.
"Why did we wait this late?" She giggled as she hugged him.
"Want more?" Jonghyun asked in a smirk and she hit him playfully.
"Pervert." She smiled as Jonghyun jumped up and onto her again. "Only if you want me to be one." He laughed as he gave her a sweet kiss on her lips.
                          
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First request so, I hope I did a good job!