Fears/恐れ (2/2)

                                    

                                          
'You fear what you cannot see.'
                          
Darkness.
                          
Your vision was full of darkness. Pitch black. You see nothing but yourself.
                          
You wandered around, not wanting to see that "person". Memories were played like a videotape suddenly. From the day you were born to the day you joined the Survey Corps after graduating. 
                          
You see your friends getting killed by titans. Some ripped into half, some slammed into trees, and some was eaten like a wild animal, helpless. You feared. All your friends died except you. 
                          
"L/N, why are you the only one surviving, while all of us were dead?" 
                          
"You were the only one in the Special Operations Squad led by Corporal Levi. But why not us?" 
                          
You hear those sentences from your dear friends. Their faces, body were covered on blood. Their uniform was tattered, especially their dark green cape, stained with blood and dirt. They approached you like a pack of wolves, hunting down their prey. Your instinct tells you to move backwards, until you could not do it due to an invisible wall. 
                          
"Y/N you should just die. There's no point living when we are all dead."
                          
"Y/N I hate you. To think that you said you would protect me when something happens to me.." "
                          
"Traitor." 
                          
The word 'Traitor' rung in your ears. You felt afraid. As they approached you nearer and nearer, you screamed, unable to contain any more emotions.
                          
"-Cadet L/N!! Oi wake up!" Levi shook you violently on your shoulders, attempting to wake you up. He noticed something was wrong with you as you had convulsions and spoke some unrecognisable words. You did not wake up despite shaking you, and this prompted Levi to shout for Hanji. He shouted your name again and again. Hanji came rushing in, desperately trying to wake you up too. Hanji felt for your pulse. "No good! Her pulse is getting slower and slower!" That shocked Levi and prompted him to shake you more on your shoulders to wake you up.
                          
Your heart stopped beating.
                          
Laying there lifelessly, without any movement. "..F/N...?" Levi stopped shaking you, and felt for your pulse. Nothing.
                          
"F/N! Shit it's her arrhythmia!" Levi cursed, and jumped onto the bed. Interlocking his fingers and palm together, he put it on your chest, and started to compress. Levi was doing CPR on you. Your body shook from the compressions he made, unresponsive.
                          
"F/N don't leave this world yet!! It's not the time!! And I need you in my squad!!" He compressed, and gave you air through your mouth and into your lungs. He did this numerous times, just to make you come back to life again. 
                          
Deep in your mind, you hear Levi's pleas, but that "person" held out a hand, prompting you to come forward. You stared at the black hand for a while before holding on it, ignoring Levi.
                          
"It's... It's my f..fault... for c..causing their d..deaths...." You mumbled, hands trembling. That "person" gave a wicked smile, unknowingly to you.
                          
"F/N."
                          
That "person" called your name, and you see Levi being restrained and a blade was on his neck. "No!! Leave him alone!!" You shouted, with tears steaming down your face. This was the greatest fear you have: seeing your loved ones die and you could not do anything. 
                          
You loved him.
                          
A stream of blood was seen as the blade slit Levi's throat, leaving him in a pool of blood. He laid there, lifeless.