Confessions

                                    

                                          
~Chapter 6
                          
Rose's POV
                          
I wake up, get a shower, dry and brush my hair, get breakfast, do my makeup, and brush my teeth. Everyday general morning routine. Except this won't be an "everyday" type of day. Me and the Doctor need to talk, big time. I don't what I'm going to do if- Suddenly then the doorbell rings, and I leave my room. Mum's at the door, she opens it, and there stands the Doctor. My heart flips over at the sight of him. For two different reasons. 1 - my anger towards him, 2 - the fact I missed him. The Doctor walks inside, and his eyes find mine. I swallow and nod for him to follow me into my room. He doesn't hesitate, and Mum walks into the kitchen, obviously knowing why she's not needed. The Doctor comes in, and I motion for him to take a seat on my bed. But I stay standing.
"Why did you do it?" I say quietly, crossing my arms in front of my chest.
"Rose, that's not the point-"
"Yes, it bloody well is the point." My voices raises a little "How do you think I felt, hmm? When you left me on that stupid ship for 5 hours? And then for me only to find you snogging Reinette's face off?" 
"Rose, I really am sorry, but...it's not what you think it is."
"See, that's what Mum said, and she said you had to explain-"
"Then let me explain. We'll take it in turns. Here." He says, patting the spot on the bed next to him. I carefully sit down beside him, but still keeping a distance. We turn to face each other. 
"I didn't kiss Reinette." The Doctor says.
"What?" I aak, confused. 
"I said I didn't kiss her. In actually fact, she kissed me."
"Oh." Is all I manage to say, emotions building up inside of me. 
"Honestly Rose, I don't how you could ever think I'd leave you for 5 hours on purpose? It was all an accident, everything that happened. The fireplace, it was like a time window, and every time as jumped through, time progressed much slower in France, and much faster on the ship. There was nothing I could do.
"You could've taken me with you." I say, looking into his eyes.
"No. Much too dangerous."
"Well, it wasn't too dangerous for Reinette, was it?" I snap. 
"Rose, it wasn't like that! I don't love Reinette and I never have! And when...and when she was kissing me....all I could think about was kissing you." The Doctor says. I sit in silence. On any ordinary day for me and the Doctor, I would've been over the moon to finally hear him say that. But now, I've got to take care of other things first.
"I think it's my turn." I say, straightening up. The Doctor nods, waiting for me to go on.
"The real reason I left you..." My voice trails off slightly, and the Doctor finds my hand and squeezes it. I shiver at the contact, but I don't pull away. I need all the support I can get right now.
"Rose, what is it?" The Doctor knows something's up. He always knows. 
"I....I think you should see this. Wait here." I get up and leave the room. 
                          
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The Doctor's POV
                          
I sit patiently as Rose exits her bedroom. I don't know what on a Earth she's doing. I wonder if she even remembers me meeting her in that park when she was a little girl....maybe I'll ask her later. At that, Rose comes back in to the room, a small tube-like box in her hands. She takes a deep breath and comes to sit next to me. 
"Here." She hands me the little box, and holds her hands tightly clasped together in her lap. 
"Rose, wha-" 
"Just open it." She says. Slowly, I take the top of the box, and there lie several sticks, all with a blue end on them. As soon as I see them, I know exactly what they are. 
"Oh, Rose.." I breathe.
"I didn't know how many to try, so I just used them all...." Her voice trails off, and I look over at her with concern. She closes her eyes as a few tears escape, dropping like rain drops down her cheeks. 
"It's...mine?" I say quietly. She nods, more tears falling. Not wasting another moment I lay the box on the floor and pull her into a hug. I rock her gently as she sobs in to my shoulder. 
"Hey, hey," I smooth her back gently "We'll get through this, I promise." 
"And now you see why I had to leave?" She asks quietly, pulling back and looking me in the eye, the tears now gently falling "I thought I couldn't trust you when you went off with Reinette, I panicked. That night, the night I left, I was planning to tell you then, but when you kissed- When Reinette kissed you, I thought I could never be with you again. I was just thinking, how could I ever carry your child if you were just going to go gallivanting around the universe picking up other women, and never wanting me." Her voice wavers. 
"Rose, listen to me" I hold her shoulders "I would never not want you, understand? I would never want to be with anyone but you." I say, hoping she understands. She nods, another tear making its way down her face. 
"So you really didn't kiss her?" Rose asks quietly.
"Really." I say, cupping her cheek in my hand "And I'll be with you, all the way. I promise." At that, I press her forehead to mine, and we sit like that for a while, before I decide it's time I told her the truth. "Rose, there's been something I've been keeping bottled up inside for a while now. You need to know...I.." My voice trails off "I love you." I say the last words with such certainty, certainty I've been holding in for so long. It is then when she leans forward and kisses me. Fireworks explode inside me, and my eyes close at the contact. For a moment I'm stilled, getting used to the feel of her lips on mine, but then I deepen the kiss, and hold her even closer to me. She breaks apart soon after for air.
"Oh Doctor, I love you too." She pulls me in for a giant hug.
                          
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SO THE SECRET IS REVEALED. DUN DUN DUN. 
Anyways, there will be another spillage of a secret in the next chapter....I swear to god I should just call this book TenRose secrets 😂 
Ella :))