|21| with her

                                    

                                          
Hayes POV
                          
I freeze and just stare blankly at the doctor. She... Moved... Her... head... 
                          
"please let me in to see her" I whisper as tears fall from my eyes. "I love her" I continue.
                          
"Hayes" the doctor says as she comes and sits next to me. "How about we make a deal? You can come every morning at 8am to see her. I will allow you in her room with her alone to give her the pills she has to take. If she cooperates then you can continue coming from 8-10. If she stops cooperating then we must move her location."
                          
"YES PLEASE I WILL DO ANYTHING." I cry out. 
                          
She gets up and moves to the door. She sticks in the key and opens the door. I jump up and run to the doorway. I look inside and she Haylee looking exactly at the door like they said. Her eyes were empty and dull. Its like she was looking right past me. I slowly walked forward until I was right next to her. I started down beside her and just started crying. She moved her head to look at me and tears started falling down her face. Thats all that happened. Nothing more but it was all I needed. I love her and I never actually showed her that and now shes stuck in here. 
                          
I sit there for an hour with her in silence, both of us crying. I keep thinking of everything I did wrong. I could have protected her, I could have loved her, I never should have bullied her, im a worthless person no wonder shes in here, I don't deserve her. It repeats in my head over and over the entire time.
                          
"Hayes... Its time to leave, you can come back and her tomorrow like we agreed." the doctor says snapping me out of it.
                          
I stand up and turn back to look at Haylee. She is still looking at the spot I was just sitting. 
                          
"goodbye princess, stay strong, ill be back tomorrow morning. I love you." I quietly say before I exit the room and meet my mom. 
                          
The ride home was silent like normal. We arrived home and I ran right upstairs to bed. It was 9pm and then faster I go to bed the quicker I can see Haylee again. I already miss her so much my heart hurts. Just seeing her in that place makes me hurt. I drifted off to sleep, once again crying.
                          
*next day*
                          
My alarm rings at 7:30 and I jump out of bed. I throw on some clothes and race downstairs. Its 7:35 and I am sitting on the couch waiting while my body is shaking. My mom comes downstairs at 7:50 and I jump up and grab her hand. I pull her outside and we are off. I couldn't be more excited to see her.
                          
"well someone's anxious" my mom says laughing.
                          
"have the person your in love with in her situation and then say that joke again." I snap back.
                          
She stops talking and its silent the rest of the ride. We arrive at 8:03 and I jump out of the car and run inside.
                          
"someone's excited." the doctor, Whos name I learned is Dakota Berger, says. "here's her food and pills. She must eat everything if you want this to continue Mr Grier." she continues.
                          
"yes, I understand." I was softly
                          
"then go ahead, you know where she is." she points to the door.
                          
Step by step I slowly approach the door. I hesitate as I mean hand wraps around the cold metal handle. I wonder if she will even move towards me. What if im invisible to her? I care for her so much but she might not even know I am there. I didn't even look at her through the window to see what I want walking into.
                          
My mom places her and on my back snapping me out of my mind.
                          
"go to her Hayes." she sympathetically says.
                          
I grasp the door handle and open it slowly. There she is, sitting facing the white wall. Her hair is a mess and there's tears running down her face. Her gown is wrinkled and bunched in all the wrong places. Oh damn how much I love her and want her in my arms. She makes looking beautiful so effortless. 
                          
"Haylee...?" I croak out just then realizing there's tears streaming down my face too. 
                          
Her head slowly turns and she looks in my direction. Once again her eyes are empty and its like shes not really looking at me.
                          
"Hay...." is all she can get out before grabbing her throat and coughing.
                          
I run to her and at next to her. She avoids my glance and then stops coughing. I grab her hand and move her face so shes staring into my eyes. I see a sparkle of something fimilar in her eyes and it makes me smile. Damn it how much I want to kiss her, but I can't so I let go of her face and look in my lap.
                          
"Here's uh your food and stuff" I say quietly and hand her the tray.
                          
"thanks." she croaks out quickly.
                          
I see it pains her to talk so the rest of the time I sit there in silence staring at her prefectness while holding her hand.
                          
"Hayes, its time to leave." Mrs Berger says as she pokes her head through the door.
                          
"okay ill be right out." I say as tears slip down my cheeks.
                          
I turn to Haylee and just look at her beautiful face. 
                          
"Haylee, I will be back tomorrow right at 8 like today. Please eat and take your medicine. I want you to be my happy girl and he with me. You're so beautiful, kind, funny and I miss you so much. I love you Haylee." I say as tears slip down my cheeks faster. I kiss her cheek and turn and start to walk away...
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New update! 
                          
Sorry if its getting boring but she can't just like be miraculously healed. I think its kinda sweet tho.
                          
Anyways, HAYES IS SLAYING ON DWTS! tonight he cried bc of his mom and I lost it. I love him sm and im so proud he made it this far!
                          
Leave any comments or suggestions please!