It Should've Been US

                                    

                                          


                          
   VMA Weekend what more is there to say about VMA weekend? oh right how everything is so fucked up already and that adding an award show just makes everything worse. It's the cycle that just won't end. Last year it was about Austin and Camila and now this year it's about Camila and Shawn. This time though it hurts more because compared to Austin, Shawn actually has the capability of keeping her happy and not fucking up. 

                          
   We had arrive on the Carpet just in time and to say it was insane was a lie because this Carpet was a fucking maze. it was all over the place and you could tell that MTV was trying way too hard to bring back the show to it's glory days. As for our nomination I knew it was hard since MTV screwed us over by putting that vote limit and also breaking their own rule with who they nominated. I wasn't mad about the award though what I was worrying about though were the interviews we were suppose to be doing on the Carpet. I know that in a way Shawn might be brought up since Camila made it a public thing to openly flirt with him on twitter. All I could do though was just watch because like Big Rob said I couldn't do anything if she wouldn't see things for herself.  I wasn't going to be holding her hand through every time she got trashed by the media or by fans from other fandoms. She had to see it for herself and notice that we no longer have a normal life even if we wish we still did. 

                          
The first interview of the night went really well Shawn wasn't brought up at all but once again Camila had to answer every fucking question as if she were the only one in the group. There was also the Taylor swift question which irritated me too and then the sixth Harmony thing which was getting old. The second interview was a bit shorter but again no Shawn being mentioned which was good. 

                          
As we started to walk towards the entrance of the place though things went south. right when I thought we were going to get off this carpet with out the Shawn thing being mentioned in hear Rob calling me back. 

                          
When I turn around I see none other then Shawn giving an interview with Camila standing right by his side. 
                          
"Why the fuck Now?" I ask 

                          
"Your old manager stopped her and told her to crash his interview" Rob informs me then walks to stand behind Shawn and near Normani who has now joined into the interview as well
                          
Not even a second after I decide to join in as well and stand behind Camila we were being pushed off and to say I was happy about would have been the biggest truth in the world because I knew walking in there that after this Shawn was no where near our seats.
                          
"Lauren you okay?" I hear Dinah ask me as we all stop to collect ourselves before heading into our seats 

                          
"Yeah why do you ask?" I question her
                          
"Well you just say what happened out there I mean I know for a fact you aren't okay with the Shawn and Camila thing and well in all honesty what happened out there shouldn't have happened." Dinah says in a hushed tone as Camila walks past us with Rob next to her giving her a lecture
                          
"I mean yeah it's fucked up how Steven just assumed it would be alright to make Camila crash Shawn's interview and make it seen like something more is going on. But what can I do about it. You see how she acts around me now. I mean we might not be officially broken up but she sure doesn't seem to care about what I have to say to her. And honestly I'm tired of all this D. You know I will do anything and everything to protect her but if she won't even let me then I'm not even going to try simple as that. if she wants a relationship that's all over the tabloids again like her last one then let her it's her reputation that's at stake not ours. We can try our best to save her from the media insults and stuff but if she can't help herself by not making every thing or every interaction she has with a guy some what private then it's her fault. I'm don't being her hidden superhero" I tell her walking away and taking a drink from my cup of water.