El Perdon (The forgiveness)

                                    

                                          


                          
No POV

                          
   It's been over a month now since that god forsaken interview that had set off a time bomb. Everyone was a bit on edge and it didn't help much that it was clear the some of the girls were taking sides. Normani didn't talk much with Camila and Ally tried playing nice with all the girls but it was clear that things were not in a good place. For the fans it was a different story most of them thought everything was perfectly fine and that all the girls were just tired and nothing else. But some knew better and they knew that something was up they just had no clue what it was. For the time being though Camila and Lauren tried to interact more to not cause any questions but when they weren't in front of fans it was them not even looking at each other. 

                          
It was so bad that Big Rob is even pissed off about it. And when he gets pissed it is not the best thing ever. 

                          
It was not the last day Of the tour and before they even got to go to the venue they had to be at time Square to premiere the I'm in Love with a Monster music video, all the girls were excited about it because this was a huge deal but it was also a bit bitter sweet because it was also the end of a very amazing tour. 

                          
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Lauren's POV
                          
  Time Square wow we are really showing this video in Time Square this is just unbelievable and also insanely amazing. I know I show completely happy and excited about this but in a way I can't be and it's all because I think that I have lost her for good now. Lately she's been smiling like crazy every time she gets a text and I know it's not from me because she barely talks to me after our fight over a month ago so it has to be someone else making her smile and making her eyes light up the way they do. I can't blame them though this is my fault for being an idiot like always. I don't know why I always have to ruin it when things go great between me and her it just happens and I'm the one to blame. 

                          
"Lauren time to go" I here Big Rob say from out side my hotel room door
                          
I guess it's time to put on that smile again. 

                          
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"Lauren what's wrong?" He asks me while we walk towards the elevator
                          
"It's nothing really I'm fine" I tell him even though I know that he isn't buying it
                          
"Lauren talk or else I will have your father call you and get it out of you. I know you aren't very happy so talk to me" He says stopping in his tracks 

                          
"Ugh it's just what do I do Rob? I -I know I messed up with what I said during that interview and I have said sorry to her a million times yet she won't talk to me anymore and on top of that I know she is talking to someone because she is always on her damn phone and it just makes me feel like shit. I don't know if I can do this anymore I'm just so tired of it all. If it isn't her being up Taylor's ass it's her being mad at me and me as always being the bad guy. I'm sick of it and it hurts just being around her and acting like everything is okay when it's not." I let out not giving a shit anymore
                          
"I know it sucks kid trust me and more with you girls being in the spotlight. You girls get no privacy and you got reporters and paps always in your face with ridiculous theories. Then you also have some of your fans who don't seem to notice that what some of them do does hurt you but unfortunately this is what you signed up for when you signed that contract. Even if it wasn't in bold print it was in the very fine print. Signing up with a label is basically selling you soul to the devil himself. I know what it does don't forget I went through this with Kevin Joe and Nick and I saw them go through the exact same thing you and the other girls are going through the only difference is that they are boys and you are girls which sucks because you get put under a microscope more then they do but you can't let that crap get to you. I know that your relationship with Camila is suffering because of this but Lauren think of it like this. If she can't grasp the fact that you like things to be personal between you two then she isn't mature enough to understand that you are doing it to keep her safe from all the bullshit people say about her. I've been with you girls for over a year now and I see how protective you are of her and I see how you fight yourself to be around her or how you hesitate to touch her in front of Cameras because you don't want people talking shit about her. I saw how you tried your hardest to keep that Austin boy as far away from her because you knew he would break her and I also saw how you questioned Taylor Swift and her motives because again she does come off as very nice and sweet but you can never judge a book by it's cover. You stay away from her to protect her but she takes it as you not really loving her so if you want my advise I say let her do what she thinks is best for her because honestly she's going to have to learn and see things for what they truly are you can't be protecting her all the time because in the end it will only hurt you both." Rob says giving me a side hug and I know that he's right if I want Camila to notice things I can't shield her from it all the time