I love you

                                    

                                          
*MONDAY MORNING*
                          
 I woke up, fresh again, following my normal morning routine. I wore my light blue skinny jeans and a white plain T-shirt, with a black logo on it. Finally, I wore my black Nike shoes and grabbed my bag. I exited my flat, walking just a few steps. I was in front of Mesut's door. I took a deep breath and knocked, one or two times. He opened his door immediately. "I'm ready. Let's get going.." he told me kinda down and exited his house. "Are you feeling ok?" I asked him. "Yeah , about that.." he said and then he closed his door. "I want to apologize for everything that happened last evening. I'm glad that you were there for me.. I mean, in a helpful.. Ahh.. Hope you can understand what I mean!" he told me and walked downstairs. "Sure.. No problem!" I said flollowing his steps. I tried to be as much convincing as I could. Because, not that deeply inside me, I wasn't feeling really well about what happened yesterday. That kiss.. Almost like it meant to be. Since that day, my feelings towards Mesut have changed. The  whole idea I had about Mesut is different. Maybe Nelly was unfortunately right.. What if.. I was really falling for him? What if.. Uhh.. I didn't even want to think about it.. But still.. Maybe.. I was in love. "Thanks, you're the best!" Mesut told me smiling. Then, he put his arm around my shoulder, hugging me. Awkward! I moved indirectly back. "Is everything ok?" he wondered. "Yes, yes.. sure.. I.. yes!" I answered. "Okayy.. haha" he said laughing. The way he hugged me, so  warm and sweet..No, noo.. What was I thinking? But, was that kind of love so difficult to admit even to myself? We arrived at school. Both of us walked to class and sat on our desk. "I want that prick Gareth, dead!" he whispered to me angrily. "Me too!" I answered, trying not to look at him. "Umm.. Emily.. I really don't want yesterday's situation to ruin our friendship.." Mesut apologized staring at me. "How did you think so..?" I asked, still not looking at him. "You act so differently now.. Please be honest, are you ok? I'd like to.. try and fix whatever wrong is going on.." Mesut said sadly. "Could we.. talk about this after school?" I asked. "Sure, whatever seems better for you." he told me and then turned his body, facing the black board. Our teacher, just came in. Class had just started. Today's four lessons, were really interesting as well. Modern art this day. Time passed away so quickly, school was already over. "Would you like to come by my house? I also have something to tell you.." Mesut said. "Sure, we'll talk there." I agreed. We walked together home. During our 'ride', no one talked. Maybe because, what was about to be told, would be told at his apartment. We were back, after 10 minutes. We didn't use to walk that fast. Both of us had that feeling that there was an important matter or something. Mesut and I entered our block of flats. We walked upstairs and in just a few seconds, we reached our destination. He unlocked his apartment and we both walked in. It looked so much more tidier than it looked last evening. "Please, sit down." he said, pointing a dark grey sofa. I did what I was told. He sat closely next to me. "Please, I'm really curious to know what you want to say." he told me, staring at me with his big dark eyes. "Look.. Umm.. yesterdays situation made me feel very nervous! Like.. Ughh.. look I'll try and be as much honest and open as I can. That kiss, was too much for me.. at least for the beginning. It felt wrong, even if you kept saying that it was right. But then.. Then my thoughts changed.. What came next, which means this morning, was more like awkward. I felt so awkward, for a reason I couldn't understand. Now.. well now I'm feeling kinda used to it.. Why do I feel like that? Is it because, what happened yesterday was very unsual? Could you.. explain it to me?" I said honestly. He didn't say anything. God! I freaked him out! He smiled. He smiled widely. "Emily..? Is it love? Because I.. I think I might.." he said still smiling. "No no! I don't think so!" I answered, really surprised. I didn't expect such a question from him. "Forget about me.. what did you want to tell me?" I asked. "Forget about me as well.." he answered, while his smile started to disappear. "Please.." I said. "No. Forget it.." he answered, still unhappy. "But please, tell me!" I demanded. "I asked you to forget it!" he said seriously this time. "Please, I want to know! My curiousity has reached the highest level!" I said. "I can't.. it seems stupid to me now.." he answered, still negatively. "I swear, I won't react in a bad way. Please, is it so useless? I'd like to-" I started saying but he interrupted me. He told me, right away "I love you! That's all! I don't just like you.. I love you!". Then, he looked down, at his hands. I was speechless. Really surprised! "It is really.. confusing.." I said. I tried not to show any negative reaction. But I couldn't. Nothing held me back. I stood up, and tried to walk to my apartment. He held my hand immediately. "Please, I want to talk about it.." he told me calmly. "I can't! I can't talk about this because right now, I have some messed up feelings going on with myself! It is really confusing and I mean it! It's like I play games with myself. My mind says no but my heart.." I said intensely and then stopped. "Your heart..?" Mesut asked, standing up and moving closer to me. "My heart wants you.." I said. "Please don't say no more!" he indirectly begged me and then leaned to my side, making himself kissing me. I won't hide it from you. My body didn't hide it from him either. I didn't like it.. I loved it! I kissed him back with all the passion. Our kiss lasted about two seconds. Then we hugged each other. "I think I love you.." I whispered, leaning my head to his chest, relaxing a little bit. "I'm sure both of us do.." he told me and then kissed my top area of my head.
                          


                          
Heyy.. 
                          
I think this story is also coming to an end. If so, I really want to thank you for supporting me! I don't know if I come up with a new idea.. 
                          
Love, Stella
                          
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