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"You really went back to it again?" Jack said, holding a small heroine bag in his hand, showing it to Luke's face. 
                          
silence. Luke didn't know what to say, he thought he'd just go by without anyone noticing, and, truly speaking, he didn't really give a shit. 
                          
"For God's sake, Luke. I'm done trying to make sense of what you do. I'm done trying to make you believe you're not the reason for it. I'm sorry I once thought you were going to be better, because I don't think you ever will," Jack said, annoyed as ever. That's quite what Sammy did hear, but what she didn't hear was, "Who brought it this time? Michael? I swear to God I knew it, once I saw him on the doorstep." He said, referring to the drug. Jack truly thought Luke was just trying it out and was going to just rip that black page from his book, but in fact, he really didn't. 
                          
Addiction is not really just the drugging substance as much as it's an escape from a certain reality, the addict is trying not to come across, and that's exactly what Luke was going through. He couldn't believe he was the reason of his brother's death, so he thought, drugs were the only way out. So, he isolated himself from the outer world, refused to speak to anyone, and found his way with drugs. As times passed he became an easy victim for psychiatric illness. He stopped speaking, stopped doing things he used to be overjoyed to do, lost interest in so many things, stopped living as a normal teenager, and as a result, drugs became his only friend. 
                          
That's how Luke lived his life, really, before Sammy crossed paths with his. She put color in his life, that before her he was devoid of. She made him the level of happy he never thought he could reach again. But once an addict, always an addict-or at least he thought so. There's always the possibility of returning back to drugs. It never leaves completely, because it's a fatal disease. Its conclusion, always been known. Prisons or graveyards. That's how it usually ends, and as a matter of fact, Luke did stop for a short while when Sammy was around, but as he fell more in love with her, he kept going down until he reached rock bottom again. 
                          
So, when she saw Michael frequently visiting Luke on his porch, he was actually trading money for heroine. The times they both just disappeared for more than half an hour was because they were actually sniffling the drugs up their noses. And, poor Sammy thought Michael and Luke were the closest because they loved each other so much and were more of best friends than any other two between the four of them. 
                          
Sammy never really knew or even guessed there was anything within Luke other than being the sweetheart he was. She didn't try hard to investigate about him. She was just used to let everything go behind her back, that she thought the most rebellious thing Luke has ever made as a teenager was to smoke cigarettes. She was that naïve. Or in other words, he made her not cross lines with him and made her know only what he wanted her to know about him, but in fact, Luke was just a victim, as many others, who lost a piece of their brain to mental instability and addiction disease.