Tears

                                    

                                          
Ben POV:

                          
"Ben, I am so sorry." Josh said, trying to be comforting.
                          
"I just don't know what I did wrong." I sat in our hotel room, still an emotional mess.
                          
"She's just not thinking straight. She's stressed because of her brother and she isn't in the right mind." Sky said.
                          
"I just- I love her. And I never got to tell her. And now she hates me." I said, choking on tears.
                          
"Ben she doesn't hate you. She just needs space." Josh said. I laid down onto the bed and shoved my face into the pillow, crying my eyes out. 
                          
"Ben, it's ok." Sky said.
                          
"No it's not ok Sky. I know you are just trying to make me feel better but the only thing that will make me feel better is Jordyn. I really like her, I just want to hold her in my arms. Why did she break up with me? WHY?" I screamed, crying my eyes out. I want Jordyn back, I need her.




                          
Josh POV:

                          
I've never seen Ben like this, such an emotional wreck. I don't know what to do. Ben got up off the bed and went into the bathroom.
                          
"What do we do?" I asked Sky.
                          
"Should we call Jordyn? Talk to her about it?" Sky asked. I guess that's worth a shot. I pulled out my phone and dialed Jordyns number. I stepped out into the hallway. Good, she answered.
                          
"Hey Jordyn? How's your brother?" I asked.
                          
"He's stable, but he still doesn't remember anything. They don't want me to be in the hospital because they think its too emotional for me. So I'm staying at my house for now."
                          
"Well I'm glad he's stable and I hope his memory comes back soon."
                          
"Thanks, now onto to the real reason you called."
                          
"What are you talking about?" I tried to play it off.
                          
"I know you talked to Ben and are calling about that."
                          
"Jordyn, you are both two of my closest friends."
                          
"Josh please. I don't want to talk about this."
                          
"Why did you break up with him?"

                          
"I have to go."

                          
"Jordyn wait-" And she hung up. Great. I went back into the room and Ben was still in the bathroom. I knocked on the bathroom door.
                          
"Ben, please come out." I could hear him crying through the door.
                          
"I don't want to talk, I want to be alone."
                          
"Ben come on, please talk to me." The door slowly opened. His eyes were red from crying so much and he was super congested. I grabbed him in a hug and Sky joined. 
                          
"We are always here for you Benjie. Everything is going to be ok." Josh said.




                          
Jordyn POV:

                          
I threw my phone onto the couch, silencing the ringer.
                          
"Is it Josh again?" Kelsey asked.
                          
"Nope, DeMarius this time." I replied. My phone has been blowing up with calls and texts from the guys ever since yesterday. 
                          
"They are concerned about you sweetie, they want to make sure you are ok."
                          
"They are only concerned about Ben, they don't give a crap about me."

                          
"Jordyn you know that isn't true." My phone started to ring again.
                          
"THEY WON'T LEAVE ME ALONE!" I said, walking over to silence my phone. I picked it up and looked at the caller. It was my dad.
                          
"Hey dad, everything ok?" I asked.
                          
"Honey, Parkers memory is coming back. He remembers you and is asking for you. I think you should come down now." I hung up the phone and threw my jacket on. I jumped in the car and had our driver take me to the hospital. I ran through the doors into the hospital room. I was greeted by Parker who was sitting up in his bed, smiling at me.
                          
"Jordyn!" He said. I ran over and gave him a huge hug.
                          
"You remember me! Parker you had me terrified!" I said, tearing up with tears of joy. "How are you feeling?"
                          
"Well my face hurts and so does my shoulder. But they said I should be released this week. It's kinda scary to think I almost died." He responded.
                          
"You lost a lot of blood. But I'm glad your ok. You had me worried sick."
                          
"I can't believe you came home from your tour for this."
                          
"Parker, you are my brother. I would do anything for you."
                          
"So where's Ben? Dad told me he flew in with you."
                          
"Um, let's not talk about Ben ok?"
                          
"Why, what happened? Did he do something to you?"

                          
"No Parker, I broke up with him."
                          
"Why the fuck would you do that? Do you know how much he likes you? He left the tour to come here with you to see me!"
                          
"Parker I don't want to talk about it, ok?"
                          
"No we are talking about this.  Do you know how many texts I got from him about you? Jordyn he is the perfect guy for you."
                          
"Parker please, stop. Let's focus on you and your recovery."
                          
"Fine. But we aren't done talking about this." He said. I stayed with Parker the whole night, talking to him as his memories came flooding back. I fell asleep in the chair next to his bed and woke up the next morning to Parker playing xbox. 
                          
"Well look who's finally awake." Parker joked.
                          
"Have you been playing xbox all morning?" I asked.
                          
"Nope, I talked to Ben earlier."
                          
"YOU DID WHAT!?!" I screamed. He better be lying or I will hurt him.
                          
"I called him. I told him I had my memory back and told him about my recovery. He misses you Jordyn"
                          
"Parker, please stop."
                          
"No, I'm not stopping. Jordyn he's a mess without you! He needs you, and you need him."
                          
"Parker, I'm serious. Stop. I broke up with him, it's done and over. Stop bringing him up please."
                          
"I don't know why you broke up with him J!"
                          
"BECAUSE I DON"T WANT TO HURT HIM."
                          
"YOU ARE HURTING HIM MORE NOW THAN YOU EVER HAVE." Parker screamed back.
                          
"I'M A BROKEN PIECE OF SHIT WHO HAS SOME NEW PROBLEM EVERY 2 SECONDS. I'M A MESS AND HE DESERVED BETTER. I'VE KNOWN HIM FOR ALMOST 2 WEEKS AND HAVE ALREADY CREATED SO MUCH DRAMA. I FUCK EVERYTHING UP AND HE DOESN'T DESERVE THAT." I screamed through tears
                          
"Shut up right now Jordyn. You are not a piece of shit. Never say that about yourself. Jordyn, he likes you. He wants to be with you to help you through your problems. It kills him to see you like this and he just wants to make you happy." I couldn't take this anymore. I stood up and left his room. I went outside and found an empty bench. I put my head in my knees and cried until my throat hurt. I'm hurting Ben, that's what I wanted to avoid. I don't want to hurt him. Everything I do, I end up hurting him. I'm sorry Ben, I'm sorry.