Chapter 31

                                    

                                          
Sam Tomlinson
                          
I woke up with a headache and saw my mom sitting on a chair in the corner of my room reading a book. 


                          
Louis was asleep next to me I remember how I asked him to sleep next to me. Seeing my mom here was strange so I pretended to still be asleep. 



                          
I felt Louis move and I opened my eyes and he looked at me. I mouthed 'what's mom doing here?'

                          
He frowned and I whispered, "What's mom doing here?"

                          
"She insisted she wants to see you and be here." He whispered



                          
"She doesn't know the story does she?"




                          
"Exactly." 



                          
Mom was still reading and Louis got up and left the room to go to the bathroom. Mom stood up and walked to my bed, "Sweetheart I've missed you."



                          
"You too mom." I forced a smile 




                          
"I know what I did was wrong, but I thought that Eleanor and Louis still have feelings for one another."



                          
"Mom I don't want to talk about it and could you get a nurse for me please?" 



                          
She nodded and left me alone in my room to find a nurse. The door opened and when the person came to my bed I saw Zayn.



                          
"Hey." I said



                          
"Hi Sam, I shouldn't be here I know but I wanted to make sure you're okay."


                          
"I'm find Zayn, I'm going to get out they just need to make sure that everything is fine." 



                          
"Is this because of me? Of what I did that night?" His voice sounded hoarse like he was going to cry



                          
"We don't know for sure but it might be. Zayn I have this plan."



                          
"Plan what do you mean?"




                          
"To get you and the boys talking again and Sophia's helping me."



                          
"Sophia?"




                          
"Liam's girlfriend. She's very kind." 



                          
"I'm happy he got someone like him."



                          
"The plan we have is that we have this dinner at some place and you are invited but they don't know. I really want Louis to talk to you, all of the guys to talk to you."



                          
"Sam thank you, but I don't think he'd be happy. They all need time and I'm going to let them take as long as they want I made a mistake and I don't want to do that again."



                          
"It can work I know it will. He'd do it if he knew it'll make me happy."



                          
"I'm sorry Sam can I think about it? I want to give them time to heal and if they want me as a friend again I'd be happy to come back." 




                          
"I'll accept that."



                          
"I should get going before they come back, see you whenever I can." He kissed my forehead and walked out 



                          
A nurse came in and I had to go for a scan to see what's wrong. I came back into the room after an hour and Louis was standing next to Eleanor and my mom. 



                          
I frowned and Louis helped me sit up before he moved away he said, "I've thought about what you said that's why she's here." 



                          
When Louis sat down in the chair next to my bed Eleanor handed me a letter, "Everything you need to know is in there."



                          
"Eleanor I don't want a letter don't you think it's fair for my brothers sake if you tell him why and not write me a letter?" 



                          
"I guess so, but the letter was also written by Zayn not just me." 



                          
"Tell your part and I'll read Zayn's then." 



                          
"Alright before I start, Louis I'm really sorry about all of it. When it started I should've told you that I didn't feel the same anymore." 



                          
"You shouldn't apologise now, say what you have to say and get it over with." Louis looked down at his hands and Eleanor told her story




                          
She finished and I read the rest of the letter....
                          
It started because I wasn't happy that you didn't want to tell Louis and I wanted to. I thought that you didn't really care about me and you didn't feel the way I did about you. 

                          
"Eleanor and I we met up one day and I kissed her...it just happened. I tried not to do it again but I did and she kissed back after that day I thought about Louis and why you didn't want to tell him and I lost it. 
                          
I thought that if you really loved me like you said you did you wouldn't care what Louis has to say about that you'd rather be happy with me. 


                          
Louis has always been more important to you and I should've accepted it rather than kiss his girlfriend and run away when they broke up. I was a fool and I lost the one person I loved because of it. 

                          
Never would I be able to talk to you or the lads again because I hurt you all more than enough and I am truly sorry. 

                          
I hope that someday you'd see to it to forgive me, whenever that day might be I'm willing to wait.
                          
Love Zayn"

                          
I wiped away a tear and folded the paper, Louis sniffed and looked at Eleanor, "Why didn't you just tell me?"



                          
"You were still in love with me and I didn't want to hurt you, but I hurt you more by doing this." 


                          
"Where's Zayn?" I asked 



                          
"He is back at my house why?"



                          
"Never mind, Eleanor could you leave me and Louis alone for a minute please?"


                          
"Sure." She and my mom left the room


                          
Eleanor Calder 

                          
I left the room and tears rolled down my cheeks I wiped them away before their mom could see.


                          
The truth is out and I can never take it back again
                          
I sat down on the seat and put my head my hands and silently sobbed. 


                          
Sam Tomlinson


                          
"What do we do now Lou?" I wiped away a tear 


                          
"I don't know, I really don't." He paced around the room and put his hands in his pockets


                          
"Why is it all so screwed up?"