Chapter 101. I don't trust you.

                                    

                                          
"Today." He said, his voice running trough my mind. Today. So it really was true, it wasn't a lie, it wasn't deception, Kiriwo wasn't dishonest with me..
They really, truly want me gone.
From his pocket he got another bottle, drinking it. It must nullify the effects, or not? "Iruma!" Opera said, looking worried as I stared at him in a daze. "..." I spoke back as tears erupted from my face, choked sobs following.
"Iruma, it's isn't like that, I promise!" Opera said, panicked, before continuing on. "We were planning to but-" Opera stared into my eyes before sighing. "We don't want you gone, we really don't." He said, as I stared at him.
"And how can I believe you now?!" I asked, pointing at the liquid he drank. He looked at his hand, before looking up at me. "I can get another-" He said before I cut him off. "I don't trust you.." I sobbed, a deep sense of rage making its way trough my blood. He seemed hurt by that, but continued on either way. "Iruma, I promise, we don't want you gone." He said, as calmly as he could. He stared at me, waiting for a response. But I couldn't speak at all, I just sobbed.
Opera looked at me, before looking at the door. He looked conflicted between going away and staying. "Iruma, I can get another." He said, before touching my shoulder, making me flinch away. As I looked into his eyes I saw my own reflection in his. Scared. I'm scared of him. Opera stood up. "I'll be back very quickly, okay?" He asked me, as if I still wanted to talk to him.
Don't bother coming back.
If you go now, don't ever bother coming back.
He then walked out, and I was left sobbing on the bed. I wanted to hide away, to hide my face away. But god did it hurt so much. All this time, I had hope, hope that the stupid teal haired lied to me, that grandpa and Opera were talking about something else, someone else. But all hope is lost now. They really, truly want me gone.
The door was still open, wich felt extremely uncomfortable. I sobbed into my pillow, but the pillow didn't have enough space to hide away in. I don't even think this was the pillow I had before. I angrily threw it away, back in place again. It frustrated me, I wasn't good in anything, not even being angry. I wanted to hide away, before Opera came back. I just needed to hide, thats all. Just hide.
And so I got down from the bed, and started crawling under it. From the other room I heard Opera coming. "Iruma, what are you doing?" He shouted from across the hall. But I just kept quiet. Maybe then he wouldn't be able to hear me. I heard him entering the room, sighing, before getting on his knees and looking under the bed.
"Iruma..?" He asked me, seeming hurt as I sobbed into a ball, shuffling as far away from him as I could. "Iruma.. It's alright." He said, seeming to be calm again, but still very caring. Was that just an act too? "Iruma.. Im sorry.. We ran out of the truth serums." He said, making me listen to him. "But I promise Iruma, we are not sending you away." He said, kneeling further, almost as if he wanted to join me under the bed. "Can you get out of being under the bed?" He asked me softly as I continued sobbing. I lightly shook my head. "Okay then, that's alright.." He said, taking a deep breath. 
"I'll leave you alone for now. It seems you need it." He said, sighing, putting his head against the floor to look at me. "But I promise you this, I love you, and so does Sullivan, you are very dear to us and we aren't planning to send you away." He said, before standing up. "Just, please.. don't do anything to yourself while im gone, okay..?" He asked me while he was leaving. I didn't answer him.
"Iruma?" He asked, sitting back down again and sighing. "I promise everything is going to be okay.." He said, as he leaned against the bedframe. He looked tired. I know I did that.. "I-I won't.." I said, weeping. "Mh?" He asked, before laying back down to look at me. "..Do a-anything.." I then added. He smiled slightly. "..I won't bother you anymore.." I said, before seeing his smile go down again. It only made me feel worse. I don't know why I blurted it out, but it didn't matter.