Hope

                                    

                                          
"Should I then accept your apologize and get back with you?"
"Just to be treated like a trash again?"
 ---------- Chapter 7.Hope  ---------- 
Beomgyu slowly opened his eyes and found Soobin searching something from the wardrobe. Beomgyu's gaze shifted to his own attire, and he blinked in confusion, "Who changed my dress? Oh, what a pretty boyfriend? Hyunwoo dropped me back?" Soobin looked at Beomgyu, at first, he thought of telling the truth but, he then, decided to go along, "Yeah, Hyunwoo dropped you home. His father met with a fatal accident." Beomgyu's face immediately shifted from confusion to worry. He shot up from the bed, his eyes wide with concern. "What happened? Is he okay?" Soobin hesitated for a split second, then added, "He didn't say much, but I think he's really shaken up by it. I think he needs some space right now." Beomgyu didn't wait another second. He rushed to the balcony, grabbed his phone, and dialed Hyunwoo's number. The phone rang only twice before Hyunwoo picked up.
Hyunwoo: Oh, hello Beomgyu...
Beomgyu: Hyunwoo, I heard about your father. How is his condidtion now??
Hyunwoo: It's actually fine now. He's much better, really... But hey, I'm sorry..
Beomgyu: Huh, Sorry for what?
Hyunwoo: Last night, I met Soobin at the bar and he found out we are fake dating. 
Beomgyu: Oh sh!t, did he? Wait a second... You met him at bar.
Hyunwoo: Yeah, and I again apologize for leaving you with him..
Beomgyu: What?? Which means you didn't drop me??
Hyunwoo: No, Soobin must have taken you home.
Beomgyu: What? No... No, this can't be true...You are lying...(his mind racing with confusion and suspicion.) I will call you later...(Hung up abruptly)
Beomgyu stormed into the dining room, eyes burning with frustration as he locked his gaze on Soobin, who was casually eating waffles. His voice shook with anger as he demanded, "You think it's funny to fool me? Huh? You really thought I wouldn't find out that you dropped me home instead of Hyunwoo? Why did you lie?" 
Soobin's face went pale, clearly shocked by Beomgyu's outburst. He hadn't expected this kind of reaction, but guilt quickly settled on his features.
"I just didn't feel like telling that. I'm sorry if that hurt you... It wasn't intentional... I just... I'm sorry. I won't do that again" Soobin replied in the calmest voice possible but, it was clear, he was regretting deeply.
 "Now you are mocking me? Fvck off!!" Beomgyu turned to walk away. Soobin called out, "Beomgyu, wait! " Beomgyu ignored him. Soobin quickly got up and moved to block his path. As he grabbed Beomgyu's arm, Beomgyu flinched, startled by the sudden touch. Seeing the fear in Beomgyu's eyes, Soobin immediately loosened his grip, his expression softening, "I'm sorry, "But... if you're okay with it... can I ask you about your scars? I just want to understand... only if you feel like talking about it." 
Beomgyu stayed silent for a whole minute, he was deep thinking. Soobin waited patiently. "How you... know about that?" Beomgyu asked, his voice barely above a whisper, tinged with uncertainty and fear. 
"I dressed you into pyjamas last night... so..." Soobin felt his heart breaking seeing, how fragile Beomgyu was looking. Beomgyu took a deep breath. "I don't think you have anything to do with my scar. I do mind sharing about them... With you..." Saying this Beomgyu ran back to his room and locked the door and started crying. Should I say it was you did to me? It's the reason why I treat you like this ? Should I then accept your apologize and get back with you? Just to be treated like a trash again?
Soobin one the other hand, stood still, he started hating himself now. He wanted to make Beomgyu safe. And repay for everything he suffered because of Soobin. He wanted to give back that smile which Beomgyu lost in between.
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8 Years Before....
"It's getting late, hyung... Are you gonna sleep any soon?" 
"Beomgyu, go and sleep by yourself... You don't have to wait for me like all other married couples. I will sleep in my room and you can take guest bed." Soobin replied back, without even looking up from his computer screen. Beomgyu stared Soobin for a while. He thought whether to say it or not. He hated to share his deep secrets to his closest people. He's scared of them judging him or even, exposing it later. He was pretty sure that Soobin wouldn't expose it. But, what if he judges Beomgyu in his mind? 'Whatever, lemme just say this...'
"Hyung, I hate to sleep alone... I mean... I am scared to sleep alone. I have trauma..." Beomgyu spilled out. He even, closed his eyes, fearing Soobin might mock at him. Soobin looked at him for a few seconds. He started laughing. "Beomgyu-ahh, Stop acting like a child. No grown man has such weird traumas... Go and sleep alone." Beomgyu nodded and walked to his room.
He felt like crying, Soobin didn't knew what TRAUMA are really. He didn't expect Soobin to take his deepest secret in such a light mood. 
After a while, Soobin came into guest bedroom and found Beomgyu watching some horror movies in laptop. "Beomgyu, do you expect to sleep well after watching such stuff??" Soobin couldn't understand Beomgyu's logic. He was feeling scared to sleep ALONE but, not to watch horror movies alone. Beomgyu looked at Soobin with puppy eyes. Soobin sighs in defeat and gets on to bed. 
Beomgyu quickly cuddles Soobin, "Thank you, hyung... I love you... Good night!". Soobin removes Beomgyu's hand from him. "Goodnight, Beoms. Sleep away... I don't like sticking together. I hate guys doing it. Why are you acting like we are real couples??" Soobin chuckles before turning his back facing Beomgyu and sleeping....
Beomgyu was broken after hearing those words from his love of life. He thought, "One day, Soobin will love me that way I love him. It's just that... he hasn't realized it yet..."
You never realize the value of something until it's gone
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