💙💛//Learning vs. Teachable Spirit

                                    

                                          
I had a conversation with God this evening:
"You know that you're proud, right?"
I stay quiet for some minutes, waiting for Him to expand on what He's saying.
"You're not humble enough to be taught."
"But I like learning-"
"That's not the same thing as having a teachable spirit."
Oh-
"You like learning. This means that you're open to being taught from any source you believe you can learn from. But you don't have a teachable spirit because if you didn't percieve the giver of the lesson, or the lesson being given, as something you could learn from you wouldn't be open to being taught because of its lack of perceivable interest/value."
"So if I feel like I've learned something already or that the person relating a lesson can't possibly tell me more than I already know, I would close off myself to learning?"
"Yes."
"Because I feel like I 'already know' or that 'you can't possibly educate me on this topic. Anyone but you.'"
Pauses for a while.
"Wow, that's a lot of pride. I thought we'd dealt with this already."
"That was Me teaching you how to receive lessons without feeling attacked or like you were being demeaned. Revealing one side to pride. Teaching you the humility to listen and learn.
This is me teaching you humility and respect. That you are not too learned to learn from someone or to learn something. Irrespective of how much experience or exposure you percieve them to have had or how many times you've learned that thing, you are to be open to being taught by that person or situation."
"So, so far, I thought I was teachable because I love learning. Turns out I've been very open to learning because of my own personal interest and the perceived value I have for the lessons or people. I'm willing to listen, not because I'm teachable. I listen to teachers not because I want to be taught by them but because I want to learn from them.
If I didn't want to, their teaching would be their business..."
I let out a long sigh.
"This is really DeepWork indeed. Can you please help me overcome this? 
I know that I definitely can't do it on my own."
"Of course. Always remember to lean on Me. And don't avoid me like you did during the past few days.
"Okay. Thank you."
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21.05.24