Episode 3: Jackie

                                    

                                          
"Jackie, can we please talk?"
Jackie groaned and rolled her eyes as she closed her front door. She was not in the mood for Trevor and his shit. They were over. Hell, they were over before she even knew they were over, so why was he still coming around? Why did he want to revive a relationship he killed in the first place?
"You have until I make it to my car." She said and moved in the direction of her black Volvo.
"I'm sorry about everything, okay? I didn't want to hurt you, ever. It was the last thing I ever wanted to do. I love you." He reached out and grabbed her arm and pulled her to a complete stop. When she looked from him to his hand, he quickly released her. "I want you back and I am willing to do anything to get you back. I never should have allowed myself to be so weak that I would sleep with another woman who meant nothing to me."
"You know I keep asking myself that question: Why would the man I love so much choose to have sex with a woman who means nothing to him when he had me to come home to every night?" she said with her gaze fully on him as she stood maybe seven feet from her car. "I wondered if I wasn't good enough in bed. If I wasn't supportive enough. If I didn't give you enough attention. I even wondered if I just wasn't enough woman for you, good enough for you."
"You are the opposite of all of those things for me, Jackie. You're fucking wild and amazing in bed, you supported me through every dream I've ever had, you gave me all the attention I needed and more even when I thought I didn't want it and you were and still are more than enough woman for me. You're too good for me. None of those reasons were the reason why I slept with her."
"Then why? Why would you end our relationship over a drunken casual fuck?"
"You won't like the answer." He said after a moment of silence.
"What's the worst that could happen? We've already broken up. What more damage can you do?"
Trevor took a big breath and released it through his nose before he took a step closer to her. "You were my first in a lot of ways, Jackie. You are the first woman I'd ever fell in love with, made love to, brought home to my family, proposed to. And that scared the living shit out of me." He stated, his voice started to break. "You are the only woman I have ever been with that has made me so genuinely happy that I looked forward to seeing you every single day. I'd never had that before or felt that way about anyone and I panicked and did something stupid. I did what I do best and fucked everything up instead of coming to you. When I woke up in bed with that woman I literally cried because I knew what I'd done would be the reason I'd lose you forever."
"If you knew you'd lose me, why'd you tell me the truth? Some men would have kept the truth from me until either they had no other choice but to tell me or someone else got to me before they could."
"I loved and respected you entirely too much to lie to you. You deserved to know the truth and to hear from me, so even though I knew that it would be the end of our relationship, I had to tell you."
That really made Jackie think. Could she really give him another chance? Did he deserve one? They'd been together since their senior year of college and had been through so much together. Could she really not give him a second chance to make it up to her? She was always telling her patience's that she believed in second chances, so why was she not willing to believe in her own words?
Jackie took a big breath and stepped closer to him and stared directly into his eyes. "I'm not saying that there's a chance that we'll ever get back together, because right now I don't think it'll happen."
Trevor took a step closer to her, his gaze never leaving hers. "...but?"
"...but I don't see the harm in trying to be friends again and seeing where things go from there."