i think you might be
the prettiest boy i've ever seen
with your freckle spattered shoulders
and skin as smooth as honey
i can't decide whether i want to
crawl into you
and kiss all the constellations
that i find in your psyche
or pull you into me
and feel your warmth
nestled in my chest
you're always warm when i'm cold
cool when i'm hot
always the perfect puzzle piece
that fits so well with me
always the prettiest boy
with the prettiest eyes
that look at me so gently
it's like being held by a look
and god
i've written a million love poems
i outdo even pothos with my longing
but never has it ever been so
real
i don't think i've ever loved
anything so
real
and that in itself feels wholly
unreal
i keep thinking i've fooled myself
that once again i've made
a mountain out of dust
but no
there's no mistaking it
there's no excuses to make
or demands to fulfill
you've left no room for it
you've filled this space
with nothing but love
and it's cliche and cringey
but god i don't even care
i hope we nauseate everyone to death
i hope we're so sickly sweet
that we make people's teeth rot
maybe one day we'll kiss
and it'll start raining sugar
and all the kids
will try to catch it on their tongues
honestly at this point
i wouldn't even be surprised
miracles follow you
like ducklings behind their mother
no, actually—
miracles are you
how else could you exist?
how else could you
leave me so irreversibly changed?
if everything that has ever happened
—every monster under my bed
every bleeding black eye
every wound ripped open
again and again—
led to this very moment
led to this very love
then i am grateful for it all
regardless of the outcome
i will still be grateful for it all
because god what a privilege it is
to exist in this space with you
to be pressed against your chest
listening to you breathe
to feel your heart beat
thumping against my palm
to know you're entirely human
and to love you even more for it
i love you even more for it
i love you even more
and more still
every second it grows greater
like a dam being burst
i love you even more
and more
and more
and even more still
i wonder if i could ever stop
but god
i hope i never do
i hope i never do—my pretty boy
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thorns and other maladies
Poetryanother collection of poems. *TW: mentions of sexual assault, drug use, self harm and other sensitive topics* -some of these poems have been unpublished. a few have been because im submitting them to a contest (such as #6). the rest are for separa...