It's Just Not Right

                                    

                                          
The last 5 months have been a real mixture of highs and lows, Lili and I are doing really well. Since our arguments in Ibiza, we've gotten stronger than ever. I don't think that I could be any happier than I am right now in my relationship. Everything just fits so well and though I still struggle a lot with my jealousy, I'm trying to be better. Sometimes everything feels too good to be true and I'm almost waiting for something to go wrong. 
Why? Well, because that always seemed to be the way things went in my past relationships. Looking back, I don't think any of my past relationships were actually that stable. I don't think that I'd ever truly loved my previous partners, sure there were good times and there had been plenty of moments and memories that I remember fondly. It's just that Lili and I being together is making me see how the things we do and experience together is so different to my past girlfriends. It's something that I've never had with others. I know what I have with Lili is 100% real and we're both so in love with each other.
Lili and I were not hiding our relationship from the rest of the team, as expected we were met with teasing comments and approvals from the girls. Some of the girls said they saw it coming, others were interested on the how's and when's of when we became girlfriends. The two of us sported wide smiles, we were happy to just be. Happy to share our joy of being together with our friends. Though Caitlin and Kyra both did not seem as pleased as the rest of the girls. Neither I or Lili cared much about their opinions, it's not all about them. This was about us and us finally being together, totally free to be happy and content with one and other. 
The rule of us working together to strengthen our bond, linking together for the benefit of the game no longer existed. Not that any of us cared anymore, we'd still find ourselves together for certain training routines and drills. We were like a pair of hands in gloves at this point. Working better than ever, happier than ever and in my opinion, absolutely making a killing of it. 
Pre season had been a bit rocky in terms of work, we definitely weren't playing at our best potential. Jonas had been quite snappy with us all, putting pressure on us and practically yelling at us when mistakes were made due to mental and physical exhaustion.  He just doesn't seem to care about us, nothing we do seems to be good enough. And boy do we know about it. Some of our younger players were struggling to cope with Jonas's capricious behaviour and attitudes. Lili and I, as well as Kim, Beth and Viv were doing our best to be supportive to our team mates, however things just went from bad to worse. 
Our game days were even worse, we were losing games, our confidence had been knocked and Jonas only seemed to become more angry. A couple of us, Particularly Viv, Leah and I refused to let Jonas talk to us like crap. We gave back as good as he gave, though this had become a talking point across a lot of sports coverage. There were concerns about our club and the team's ability to work together, not forgetting the scrutiny we faced over our friendships and the way we link up in games. No one was happy and it showed, many of us were scrutinised all over social media. Some comments were hurtful, Leah, Beth and I seemed to get most of the bad stuff. However we all, over the last 5 months have had something negative said about us. We have done the one thing we've done this whole time, we stuck together and supported each other. 
Two weeks today, marks the day that we as a team stood up to the Swedish arsehole who made us miserable! We collectively gave him an ultimatum, unable to take anymore backlash and his harsh words towards us. His capriciousness had become way too much and we were all walking on egg shells not knowing what Jonas we'd end up with for the day. Viv had threatened to leave (she won't in this story). Her mental health was deteriorating, along with so many of the girls in our team. We weren't performing well, we were so done. This couldn't go on anymore, we needed Jonas gone and it wasn't only us that wanted it, our fans did too.