Chapter 28

                                    

                                          
                                                              My August 30th,  2 days before school
Hope Mikaelson 

I've tried everything and nothing is working, It's as if I'm invisible to Draco. 
He hasn't talked nor shown me any type of attention since the airport. It's hard watching Blaise look at Athena the way I wish Draco would look at me.  It's been days since Draco and I have talked and it feels as though my heart has been ripped out of my chest and shoved down my throat. The pull gets worse as i try to avoid him. 
It's been four days since we arrived and two days since I've started avoiding him. When I met him at the airport, I knew that this ride wasn't gonna be easy, but I never guessed that he started acting as if I wasn't there. For two days on end, I embarrassed myself trying my best to get his attention while he ignored me so I just stopped trying. I crave to be loved and looked at the way Athena is and I feel despair that I can't have it. Draco was cold to me. The way he looked at me made me feel as though I had been stripped of my clothes and pushed onto a stage in front of millions people to be laughed at. 
Draco Malfoy
I've been ignoring her like a fucking idiot, but it's even worse now because now she knows I'm ignoring her so she's ignoring me. Lately I've been aggressive with everyone, the pull in my chest is telling me I need to be with her, but my mind is telling you she'll hurt me the way Lucille did. It was a mistake to let her get close to me, a mistake I was not gonna make again.
Breakfast was awkward as Hope sat away from me, usually she would try to sit next to me and I would continue to ignore her but now she's been sitting next to Athena. She won't even look at me.
"Mother may Draco and I be excused, we have something to discuss" my eyes shot to Blaise as he maintain eye contact with his mother. Ms.Zabini give a questioning look before nodding. Blaise stood up nodding his head for me to follow. 
"what seems to be the problem" Blaise questioned as we entered the library. 
"Problem? What problem?" I asked. I know exactly what he was talking about and I knew that he knew too by the look he was giving me.
"The problem between you and Hope" he rolled his eyes.
"There is no problem, Hope and I are fine" I falsely confirmed. 
"Draco trust me when I say I know that you are going through a lot" my scoff cut him off.
"You know what I'm going through? Please you weren't even here for any of it" I rolled my eyes stubbornly. Blaise took a deep breath in.
"Now is not the time to be a stubborn bastard Draco. If you continue down this path, you will lose her and it will be the worst thing you've ever experienced let alone the biggest mistake you'll ever make. You need to let go of what Lucille put you through and move on. Hope is not Lucille and she is nothing like her but you'll never get to experience how wonderful Hope is if you continue to treat her as if she is some desperate fucking whore" he tried to be calm but I could hear his growling.
"you know nothing of how I feel or how I've been handling Lucille so you don't get to come back and think you fucking know or understand me" I shouted. 
"you're right Draco I don't know who you've become, but I do know the old you who fell madly in love with Lucille. I know the old you who went against everything his father taught him for a girl he loved and I know that you're trying to hide that you from Hope. I know that you're passionate and I know that love is hard for you. I know that you don't know how to love because the last time you tried, you got hurt but I'm telling you if you continue down this path, you will lose your final chance at love. You will lose not just some girl, you will lose your soulmate. The girl who is destined to love you through anything for the rest of your life. You will never find love like a soulmate Draco, and you will never feel a love as epic as you and Hope. You need to get the fuck out of your head and start using your heart" Blaise said calmly before shoving his way past me leaving me in the silence. Fuck I hate this. 
The rest of the day I spent away from everyone secluded in my room thinking. Blaise was right, I needed to let go of the way Lucille hurt me and move on. I knew that Hope could take away the pain and anything left in my heart for Lucille which is what scared me the most. Knowing that I didn't know how to love and then someone I don't know shows up and is capable of taking any feelings I had for someone else away was scary. 
I found myself outside of Hope's room in the middle of the night, knocking on her door. Before I get a chance to rethink the door were open, revealing her to me. Her navy blue sweater shirt and shorts fit her perfectly.
"Are you looking for something?" She avoided eye contact instead she stared at my chest. 
"I would like to speak with you" I admitted.
"Sorry but I'm busy righ-" I ignored her and pushed myself into her room, causing her to look at me with disbelief. 
"I'm...s-sorry I've been ignoring you, truly I don't even know how to deal with this. One minute I was angry all the time and the next you show up making me completely forget all my problems and what happen with Lucille" I ranted while pacing. I was terrible at apologizing.
"Lucille?, what happen with her" Hope almost growled. 
"I don't wanna talk about it because quite frankly it doesn't matter anymore. It doesn't matter because I'm ready to let it go, I'm ready to move on from what she did to me. I'm ready to leg go but I'll be upfront with you Hope. I don't know how to love, the last time I tried it I was fucked over in the end by my own blood" I continued my rant, I turned to look at her. 
"Hope, I don't know if I can give you what you need and want. I'm telling you now that I am no walk in the park." I said, she moved closer to me standing closer than what my self-control would've liked. 
"that's OK Draco. I'm not asking you to be perfect, but we don't know unless we try." She whispered, her voice pleading with me. 
"Hope I'm toxic, I hate to talk about my feelings and all I do is argue, I'm stubborn and hard to get through too. I can be cold, vile almost. If things don't go my way, I will make them. Hope I am not the person you want to love you. I don't know what I'm doing. I don't know how to love and or what it's like to be loved. I don't know if I can give you the love you need" I whisper back looking down, she raised my face in her hands. 
"let me teach you, Draco. Let me teach you how to love, let me show you what it is like to be properly loved. I'm not asking you to be perfect. I'm asking you to try. Whatever she did to you I promise you I will never do. I will never hurt you I couldn't bear the thought of it" she told me, I could tell in her eyes she meant everything she said. she wanted me, my flaws included.
"Ok" I nodded before picking her up, her legs wrapped around me.
"Ok?" She questioned. 
"Ok" I confirmed before smashing my lips against hers. The feeling was unlike anything I had ever experienced. I needed her the way she needed me and that was ok.