♡ chapter thirty six ♡

                                    

                                          

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"And you're sure your parents aren't here?" I say exiting the car as Beomgyu holds the door open for me. He nods, "I'm positive, it'll only be the two of us." He says raising his eyebrows. I roll my eyes at the boy before heading towards the front door. 
As we walk in, we both take our shoes off and head straight towards his bedroom. I throw myself onto his bed and cover myself with his comforter. I yell out in excitement, "I MISSED THIS COMFY BED!" 
He chuckles crawling in beside me, "It missed you more. What perfume do you use because I swear  I've been smelling you ever since you slept over here." 
I smile, "You sure it isn't the other woman you bring in here?" I say wrapping my arms around his neck as his body gets closer to mine. 
"Wow now, don't go pulling a Yeonjun on me." He says, I laugh. 
I snuggle my head into the crook of his neck as he rubs my back softly, I take in this moment. Capturing it in my brain as the two of us lay there together, not a single thought but each other in our heads. I look up at him and notice he's already looking at me. My face turns red, "What?" I mumble. 
He shakes his head, "You're just- breathtaking." He says. 
I hide my face from him as he could probably tell I'm nervous. And sure enough, he laughs. 
"Did I make you nervous?" He whispers into my ear.
I look back up at him, "You always make me nervous." I say, "Just like I always make you nervous." 
He scoffs, "You never make me nervous." I raise my eyebrows with a smug look on my face, "Oh yeah?" I say, he nods. 
I sit up entirely now, looking down at him as he lays there confusedly looking up at me. I smirk slightly before throwing my leg over him,  straddling him. He's a bit surprised at first, but as if we've done this plenty of times before, his hands find its way to my hips, holding me in place. 
I lean down by his ear and whisper softly, "Y'know, when I was on top of our stalker in the hallway earlier today-" I say bringing my hand up to his neck, caressing it softly with my fingers, "I couldn't help but wish it was you I was on top of instead." I say making eye contact with him now. 
His face turns red as he looks away, clearly taken aback by the sentence that just exited my mouth. I burst into laughter as I sit up, "I told you I could make you nervous." 
He chuckles, "You made me more than nervous, you blew my breath away." He says, I smile. 
I start to get off of him before his grip tightens, not wanting me to move. "Hold on-" He says, sitting up more comfortably against his headboard, "-you said you wished it was me you were on top of, so now what?" He says smugly.
I gulp, "Uh- I don't know." 
His eyes widen, "Ari-have you never done this before?" He asks me.
"You mean straddle a boy and talk to him seductively, nope." I say suddenly. 
"You've never, done it before?" 
I shake my head.
"W-why? Did you want somebody more experienced? Oh god- I'm so sorry." I say once again trying to get off of him but he keeps me there. 
"No- baby, it's not like that at all!" He says reassuringly. 
"It's just- I don't know. I assumed you and Yeonjun had done it before." He says still holding onto me, oh. 
I tuck my hair behind my ear, "Oh, trust me- he wanted to. But Vivian always told me I should protect that part of myself, until I feel ready to give it to someone who deserves it." 
"And...you knew Yeonjun didn't?" 
I shrug, "Definitely not with me but, someone will give themself to him one day." I hope. 
"And-" He looks away from me, "Do you think- I deserve you? Y'know, all of you?" He says, I smile.
I turn his face to face me slowly, "Entirely. I feel safe with you, I feel- at home." 
His smile grows wider than ever, "And I promise, to make you feel comfortable always. If I'm ever doing something wrong, please tell me." He says, I nod. 
"And as far as sex goes...." He says sitting up now, still holding onto my waist. I wrap my arms around his neck comfortably to hold myself up, "What?" I ask him. 
"I was already going to make it special either way. But now that I know it'll be your first time, I'm going to make sure I give you the best night of your life. Not tonight, but soon. Of course, as long as you're ready." He says softly, I chuckle. 
"I'm definitely ready." I say smugly. 
The rest of our time, until his parents got off of work, we just stayed in his room. 
Made out a bit, watched a movie, made out some more, took some silly videos, oh and made out some more. 
I really really love him.
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author note~hi! quick question, would you guys like a smut chapter? or should i casually skip over it? i don't want to make anyone uncomfortable here so just let me know!