Chapter 60: My friends, I suppose.

                                    

                                          
Wednesday, March 13th, 2023
12:21PM 
Wednesday's POV
"You guys are dressing up for Pajama Day tomorrow, right?" Taylor asks the table. I hold back a sigh, trying to keep this conversation from involving me whatsoever. 
Pajama Day. 
I've never understood why places will occasionally have a day devoted to the members wearing sleep attire, but they do. At my old school, it felt as if Pajama Day was a bi-weekly event, and every time, like a ritual, someone would show up wearing something even more idiotic than the last.
I've never once participated in a 'Pajama Day' at my old school. That was mainly due to the fact that while a great number of people find themselves most comfortable in sleepwear, I do not, not anywhere other than my bedroom that is. I prefer to be ready for the day, prepared for anything and everything, and I simply can't do that when my mind is focused on how unnatural it feels to wear my pajamas where they shouldn't be worn.
Call me insane, but for me it makes sense. 
I continue to drown out the table's conversation as they begin discussing what they will all be wearing. Well, that is until I'm addressed of course. See, I've been drowning out their chatting so well that I'm not sure whether someone asked me directly, or if the whole table just looked in my direction at the same time.
"You all would like me to participate in a day-long school sanctioned event?" I numbly ask. By my tone, they should have expected my response as they nodded their heads. "Absolutely not." I ignore the sounds of collective disappointment from the group, and their reactions nearly make me smirk.
"Aw c'mon Wednesday, everybody does it." Divina says, as if peer pressure will sway my decision. I glance away from my book and shoot a quick glare at her. 
"Even more of a reason not to attend." I respond.
"But it's funnn." Bianca adds, dragging on the last word. Nothing, not a thing about being uncomfortable whilst trying to learn sounds enjoyable to me.
"I am actively looking forward to missing out." I tell her, hoping that everyone at the table gets the message. I don't understand why any of them would believe I'd do something like this. I've ever been one willing to fall accustomed to stereotypical teenage nonsense, even for something as minor as 'Pajama Day.'
"Really?" Ajax questions, doubting my previous statement. This does catch me off guard, the last person I would expect at this table to want me involved is Ajax. I'm not alien to the fact that I played a key role in he and Enid's relationship ending. Now, I would be lying if I said I was sorry it ended, obviously I am not. However, I do have the smallest bit sympathy towards both he and Enid for how it all went down. If I had been in Ajax's position, I'm not too positive how kind I would be to me. At the same time, I didn't know Enid had liked me, nor do I remember steering her away from Ajax, no matter how much I wanted to.
Did I cause their relationship to end? No. 
Was I the primary reason it did? Yes.
Because of that, every time I interact with Ajax, I wonder how he can be so civil towards me. I don't think I would be able to do the same. Regardless, now is not the time to think about the role I played in the mess that was their brief coupling. Right now, I have a point to prove.
"Really." I tell him, keeping my eyes trained on his facial expression. Seriously, how have these people not yet learned when I'm being honest? If I say I do not want to do something, I do not want to do it, and I shouldn't have to. 
I shouldn't have to...
I shouldn't have to do something I don't want to do.
I shouldn't have had to do something I didn't want to do.