CHAPTER FORTY-SIX

                                    

                                          
Adelaide 
I tried to open my eyes, but I couldn't. They felt heavy. I can hear the sound of beeping and the sound of my mother's voice next to me talking to someone. Someone replies back, but I can't recognize the voice. 
I tried to  remember what the hell happened? and where the hell am I? nothing comes to my mind. The smell of hand santizer fills my nose. Am I in a hospital? what the hell happened to me?
I try and open my eyes, but they're heavy like they haven't been in use for a long time. I must have been in a coma, but why? I was just about to graduate from college with Ella. Did I get in a car accident going to Ella's? this has to be it, right? I can't believe I'm missed graduation. 
I try again to open my eyes and they snap open. I look to the right, my neck aches. My mom's back is towards me. She's talking in her soft authoritative voice. I try and get her attention, but to no avail. 
"Mom?" I said, hoping that she could hear me. It came out coarse like I thought, but she turned around quickly. She looked shock like she seen a ghost. Tears fell down her eyes at a rapid pace. I tried to get up so I could hug her, but she immediately told me to stay down. 
Then, another person comes to my side. I look at him confused. "Mr. Gilmore? what are you doing here? where's Ella?" I questioned. A sad look appears on his face. I instantly get worried. 
"Don't tell me Ella is.." I can't even say the words. Ella means the world to me. I can't imagine living without her. 
"No. No" he shoots down. "Ella is okay,"
Relief immediately hits me. Then, where is Ella? why isn't she here when I'm in the hospital. What the hell happened? A million questions run through my mind, but I could tell by the look on my mom's face she isn't going to answer any of them. 
She runs her hands through my hair and kisses my forehead. "I'm going to get the doctor,"
Then she leaves me in the room with Mr Gilmore. Aniexty fills me. I had never been in a room alone with Mr Gilmore. He makes me nervous and the way he's looking at me now like a wounded like animal is killing me. 
I cough. "Where's Ella?" I asked. He opened his mouth and closed it like he didn't know what to say. "Why are you here? why am I here? why won't anyone answer my questions."
He opened his mouth again, but before he could answer my mom strolled back into the room with the doctor. The doctor, Katie smiled at me. she asked, "how are you feeling, Adelaide?"
"Like I was hit by a truck? what the hell happened?" I asked. She looked towards my mom and then back at me. 
"You had went into shock after losing a lot of blood. You been in a coma for about 6 months" she replied kind of cautiously. "because of losing blood, we had to do a hysterectomy to remove your uterus,"
Then, my world went crashing down. I won't be able to have any children of my own ever. I broke down into tears. "What...What happened?" I asked through my tears. They both looked at each other. 
"STOP LOOKING AT EACH OTHER. TELL ME WHAT THE FUCK HAPPENED?" I screamed them. I didn't mean it, but they're treating me like I was a little child. I'm not a little child anymore. I can handle this.  My mom's nods. 
"Adelaide," Katie starts softly like I'm going to break down. "You lost a baby,"
I start to burst  into more tears. I lost the only baby I was never going to have. I hear whispering and then retreating footsteps away from the room. My mom's comes to my side and wraps her arms around my body. I cry into my mom's chest. 
"Where's.. Where's Ella?" I asked through my tears. I need my best friend. She stays silent. I look up to her and ask her again,  "Where's Ella mom?"
"I think that you should get some rest, Adelaide."
"Just tell me mom!" I screamed at her. It felt like my world was falling apart and I can't even remember the past 6 months of my life. How much of my life have I missed? why can't I remember? 
"You just went through a big trauma, Adelaide. All of this at once will kill you. I will tell you everything  in time," she says softly. I know that she is right, but all of this is so frustrating. It makes me so angry. I lay down and start at the celling.