Chapter 56- Celestia

                                    

                                          

"Hi baby" 
"Hi James" I had millions of questions rushing in my head and I knew he would have an answer for each one of them, but I didn't say anything yet, not wanting to start this early.
"How are you feeling?" he asked holding my hand gently, looking at me for approval. 
"Okay, I guess." I looked at our tangled hands.
Before leaving Sofia whispered in my ear that James hadn't left the hospital room since the day I was found, the day of my birthday.
"I'm sorry for hurting you butterfly." He said breaking the not-so-comfortable silence.
"Was any of it true?" I asked worried "Have you ever really loved me? Was any of the words you said true?" I asked crying remembering everything, all the pain I felt came crumbling back in me.
"Wanna know the whole story?" He asked and I nodded.
He started talking not leaving any detail, How the voice note was really him but that it dated from more than two years ago, it was even before he fell for me, he said that it was a bet for someone to take, he always cared for me so he took it upon himself to not let anyone hurt me he accepted the bet because he knew that all the others would've actually hurt me, but he would have never, he knew he was going to fall for me.
He didn't know about the videos Reggina posted, he told me that she came and apologized to me when I was in the coma.
He told me that after he called the ambulance the day he found me, my father was taken to jail because the paramedics found drugs and lots of alcohol in the house and his body, they also found blues on my body coming from his abuse.
"I'm sorry I hurt you, baby, I didn't mean to." He apologized again for the tenth time already. 
I looked at his watery eyes, he looked like he hadn't slept in days, his eyes bloodshot.
"Stop apologizing James, it's okay, I get it, it wasn't your fault. I believe you."
I sat there with him, we talked for almost an hour until I realized him holding two small journals. "What are those?"
He looked at the journals before handing them to me.
"They are yours, I wrote a letter every day for you since the day you arrived at the hospital. At first, I was supposed to write only a couple, but then the more days that passed, the harder it became to stop, I felt like I was talking to you. Every letter expresses what I felt during that day, Sofia wrote a couple too. It was the closest I could get to you." 
Tears build in my eyes as I heard his words.
"I love you," I said, finally, feeling relief taking his hand in mine too weak to come forward to kiss him.
"I want to kiss you" I admitted his eyes softened even more as he pulled forward and kissed me hungrily, it was a sweet kiss, that was able to express more feelings than words ever could.
"I love so much more baby, so much more than you could ever imagine."