Chapter 58: Insecurity

                                    

                                          

"What if this relationship isn't meant to be?" 
⋆ y/n's pov: ⋆
It's currently Saturday night, and I can't help but have my insecurity take over my head right now. Overthinking sucks. Like for example, someone tell me why I'm feeling so damn awkward now that I'm in a relationship with Harry? Everything's amazing and I'm living a dream, it's just that- it feels like Harry doesn't want this.
It feels like there's someone else for him, like Ginny. I have a feeling those two are perfect couple, there are absolutely no flaws in that relationship whatsoever, and there i came, intruding on their relationship like some no-loved creep who's obsessed with being in love with Harry Potter and God, it makes me want to curl up in a ball and just die. 
The relationship with Harry was supposed to be flawless, it was supposed to make us both feel like I'm in heaven. Yes, I am in heaven, but he's not. It's like he's thinking about heaven when he's in hell and I hate it, I hate it so much. I want us to be happy. I didn't expect it to take a turn like this?
"Y/n." Someone says.
I snap back into reality like I was dreaming about something. 
I was.. 
"Er yes?" I say.
"Is everything okay? You look like you need therapy." She jokes.
"I'm fine, thanks." I say.
She looks at me, weirdly.
"You're not fine. What happened to you? Don't tell me it's another one of those stupid scenarios you create and think it's reality, again." 
"It's not that. It's just-" 
"Hm?" She asked, genuinely interested.
"What if this relationship wasn't meant to be?" 
She stood there, looking at me, in shock.
"What makes you think that, Y/n?" She finally asked after some brief amount of silence.
"Harry's just acting ... Weird?" 
"What'd he do now?" She face palms.
"He didn't do anything, I just feel like maybe he's thinking about someone else?" 
"Who?" 
"Ginny." 
"What? Ginny?! Listen Y/n, just because the two had a past doesn't mean that they have chemistry now. They're done, and they broke up for a reason. HARRY broke up for a reason, and that reason was you. He's in love with you, Y/n. You have to see that!" 
"Well what if he's not in love with me?!" I blurt out, which causes her to stare at me in shock again, for a brief amount of time. "What if he thought he was and just isn't anymore?"
"I have no idea where you get these ideas from."
"They're not ideas! They're thoughts which might even be the truth!"
"One thing I know for sure, Harry is definitely in love with you, and he has no one else in mind." 
"But what if that isn't true, Hermione?" I seriously ask.