35 - Your lilac?

                                    

                                          

                            

                                
                            
                              
                                  
                              
                              
                                
                                  
                                  
                                
                              
                             
                            
                            
                          
                          
I put a hand over my chest as I tried to regain my breath since I was at a loss of oxygen, I just had a nightmare which scared the shit out of me.
It felt like I knew everyone in my dream.
Well that was creepy.
I looked over to check the clock, it flashed at 9:16 PM.
9 really? I thought I slept longer.
It's still too early but I decided to get up and check if everyone is asleep outside or any kind of break ins like last time with the gardener.
I held the door handle, slowly opening the door and peeking from it. It was completely pitch black, no lights opened, no nothing.
"Okay." I suspiciously turned around and shut the door before locking it, I only have one choice now.
Going back to sleep we are.
I sighed and slowly waddled over to my bed before flopping on it. What other choice do I have? There's nothing else to do and it's pretty early.
Plus I have a good feeling about this.
. . .
I felt something crippling from my chest and to my throat "Lila-" I shot up from bed and sat up only to run to the bathroom. 
I vomited into the sink, as tears ran down my cheeks. My throat was burning so bad, it hurted and stung.
I felt someone rubbing my back whispering nothing but sweet stuff, "It's okay. Let it all out, Valen." They whispered in my ear as I gripped the sides of the sink and threw out all the remains of dinner last night. 
I peeked over my shoulder, looking up at the now concerned Kade as his eyes held worry.
I leaned back from the sink only to throw myself on Kade, crying. "Kade... I really ha- " My voice cracks, "Hate Xavier." I sniffed into his shoulder shivering, "Who's Xavier?" I felt his hands clenched into fists in the back of my waist.
Ah shit.
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I shot up from my bed again, panting. "What the hell is going on?!" I yelled, my hands gripping my hair as I looked around in my dark room.
I slammed my hand over my pounding heart once again as I tried to calm it down by thinking of something else.
There's something wrong with my dreams..
My heart started beating faster again as I thought of the people in my dreams. I looked down at my hand that's over my heart and I breathed in and out slowly.
I looked over to the clock and took note that I slept for only one hour. I sighed and rubbed my face before sitting up and getting off the bed.
"I'm not sleeping again." I exclaimed in a sarcastic manner before huffing and walking over to my closet.