24. So High School

                                    

                                          
1989's POV 
"Jesus, no one cares about their stupid balls" Speak Now groaned as we walked toward the schoolyard. The only good thing about this whole match was that there were no regular lessons. 
"Where's Red?" I asked, looking around and noticing that my friend had disappeared somewhere. Fearless looked at me with pity. 
"Do you really wanna know?" she asked and I frowned, feeling that I understood too quickly. 
"Oh my god! No!" I shouted, grimacing, and Debut giggled at the expression on my face. 
"This is actually crazy, I saw Evermore smiling this morning for the first time!" Speak Now said excitedly. "They are literally made for each other" 
"It's a nice suprise to see my sister this happy" Folklore confirmed smiling sweetly.
I've never seen Red as shining with any of her boyfriends as she is with Evermore and I was truly happy for their happiness. 
We took our seats in the stands, TTPD sat between me and Folklore. The pitch was still empty. I had absolutely no desire to watch this match at all, really. It always bored and wearied me. I'll probably spend the entire time totally lost in my thoughts or listening Speak Now's yapping. 
I was wondering if Midnights would come here. I don't think football interest her either so I didn't have high hopes for it. But still, that little spark of hope that she would appear and maybe we would spend time together remained in my head. 
People slowly started to gather, the weather was perfect. It was a warm autumn day, the sun was shining beutifully and colotful leaves were falling from the trees. It looked so nostalgic though. 
In my head I kept replaying the whole ball that took place last weekend. What I felt then was indescribable. I felt that I was so close then, so close to I don't know what. I started to wonder and think, I was sure of one thing, it was definitely not just a crush. I definitely felt something more for Midnights, I've never felt that way about anyone else. 
And then I saw her. Her beautiful, smooth blonde hair gleamed in the sunshine, slightly curled at the ends flowing in cascades down her back. I automatically smiled at the sight of her, and then SHE WAVED AT ME. I felt my heart start beating faster.
I smiled broadly and waved back, feeling myself blush. 
"She's pretty" I heard TTPD's voice who was sitting next to me, she looked at me and smiled slightly. 
"Yes, she absolutely is" I confirmed still following Midnights with my eyes. 
"Are you in love with her?" TTPD asked and I looked at her not knowing what to answer. I didn't know if it was love, I've never been in love. 
"I don't know" I replied after a while quite quietly, biting my lip. I was so confused with my own feelings. 
"The way you look at each other says a lot" TTPD smiled wider and her face seemed to brighten. "You should talk with her, just be honest"
"I fear she's not this type of person who likes talking about feelings" Maybe I was wrong, or maybe I was the one who didn't like talking about feelings? 
"It's always worth a try" TTPD encouraged me and I felt more and more confused. TTPD moved her gaze to the pitch, where the match was just starting and I was totally immersed in my own thoughts. 
This conversation could change everything, literally everything between us. On the one hand, I wanted to explain my feelings, maybe Midnights felt the same way? And if not, she could laughed at me or cut me off completely...or both. I'm starting to panic, I have to stop panicking. 
I took a deep breath, trying to organize in my head what exactly I wanted to tell her. 
Hi, so I might be in love with you but I don't know, because I've never actually been in love. 
No, that's terrible, she'll look at me like I'm an total idiot. I have to think of something else. Maybe this isn't such a good idea after all? 
I looked at Midnights who was sitting next to Lover and Reputation rolling her eyes at something and they giggled. She seemed so efforless, just herself, as if she had never had a worry in her life. 
I stared at her for a moment longer wondering about everything. I hadn't known her very long, I didn't know much about her, but the way she made me feel...it was literally magical.
I thought and analyzed everything I could say, I almost had it prepared like a line. I pulled a mirror out of my purse and looked at my reflection. Maybe at least I wouldn't look like an idiot. My heart was pounding and my hands were shaking. Why can't I be as nonchalant as her? 
I looked at TTPD who was now engrossed in a discussion with Folklore and Speak Now. I stood up and tried to gather my thoughts in my head as I walked towards Midnights. 
"Hi" I greeted trying to sound indifferent. Lover smiled broadly at me and Reputation threw Midnights a quick glance while answering me "hello. "Can we talk?" I asked looking at Midnights and nervously playing with my necklace. 
"If you insist" Midnights said smirking at me. I smiled politely at Rep and Lover as we walked away. "What's wrong?" 
"Um...nothing" I replied, feeling my voice shake a little. Midnights examined my face searchingly and I smiled silly. 
"You wanted to talk" she said, slightly amused, looking at my lips and then my eyes. This distracted me even more. 
"Oh, you're totally right, so um..." I get stuck, my mind went totally blank. Literally nothing from "speech" I had prepared a few minutes ago. Brilliant. 
"Yes?" she said in a drawling voice and I felt myself getting totally lost in her eyes. I felt myself starting to panic a little. God I'm actually invested. "Come on Nine, just say it" 
I took a deep breath, trying to focus my attention on anything other than Midnights. I was afraid that what I would say would ruin our relationship, but I had to take the risk. But wasn't it too soon to tell her "I love you"? 
"I feel like... I feel something more for you than just friends, I don't know if I even am but you're just making me feel really...I don't know..." I blurted it out literally in one breath, closing my eyes just to not see the expression on Midnights' face and gesturing at every single word. 
"Nine..."
"I don't know what it's like to be in love, I've never been in love but...oh my God..." I uttered literally each word at the speed of light. I would normally ponder this for months but now with every part of my body and soul I knew what to say and these three words felt so right. "I love you...I'm sorry"
I can't believe I actually said that. For a moment there was total silence between us. I didn't know what to expect, I dared to look at Midnights who was looking at me with a blank stare. 
Oh god, did I mess it up? 
A few seconds passed and she looked to the side and smiled to herself, shaking her head in amusement. 
"Well...I love you too and I'm not sorry" she shrugged and the happiness I felt at that moment was indescribable. 
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Idk if this chapter is good honestly but IT'S FINALLY HAPPENING!!!
I know I've been rarely updating lately, but this chapter also had several versions (it was originally supposed to be from Midnights' perspective) and the concepts changed, but I'm happy with the turn of events.
Let me know how you liked this chapter! 🖤
See you soon✒️✨️