A few weeks ago my first love came back around. I didn't know how to feel about it at the time as I told myself if they were single I would marry them. The only hurdle this time is that I am in a relationship with (y/n). I love them dearly just not the same as Nabi. We hung out and our feelings were confirmed. I felt like I was emotionally cheating so my plan was to end things with (y/n) soon. Every time I went to break up I couldn't do it. She was so good to me and I truly did love her but if I loved her would I be so quick to feel something for someone else? Finishing up my last task I shut my laptop, rub my face with both my hands, and check my phone. I had a message from (y/n) letting me know she was waiting for me at the cafe across the Apartment and 3 messages from Nabi asking what my plans are this weekend. I swipe (y/n)'s message away and reply to Nabi's with a smile before packing up and heading to (y/n). In the Taxi and halfway to the destination, I get another Text from (y/n). My heart starts beating fast as she asks about Nabi. The conversation escalated quickly ending with a simple goodbye. I tried calling (y/n) but no luck.
-THE TEXT-
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-AFTER THE TEXT-
I texted Nabi and distanced myself. I needed to think things through. My last conversation with (y/n) never left my mind. It tore me apart more than distancing myself from Nabi. I took my coat and keys and walked to (y/n)'s apartment. I needed to talk to her. Knocking on the door she opens the door surprised to see me.
"H-hey" I stutter trying to stay calm and not show how nervous I was.
"Come in" she offers and I step in as she closes the door behind me.
"I need to get something off my chest and I need to do it now. I'm sorry it's so late but I had a lot to think about." She nods and sits on the couch waiting for me to take my shoes off and follow her.
"Before you speak I... I got a visitor the other day when I was at lunch with Felix and she told me that you distanced yourself from her." I nod confirming that I have not seen Nabi or talked to her in a few weeks.
"I felt like I was emotionally cheating and I didn't want that for you. I should have told you sooner and it was wrong of me. But when you sent me that text and I told you I couldn't answer... it was because I needed to really think about the situation. I love you deeply and what I thought I was feeling for Nabi was not love and was not even like in a romantic way. I liked that someone from my past was around and treating me like normal. But I got that mixed up with love. I never stepped over the line though I would never do that to you. And that's why I am here. Because then and now I would pick you. And I know I ruined everything. But I promise to start from zero to gain everything back." (Y/n) looked down at her hands. She was wearing the ring I had gotten her for her birthday 2 years ago.
"Jisung... it's not going to be easy... I- I don't think the trust would be easy to gain back at least... but if you are really wanting to try I am willing to try as well" I reach forward and take her hand smiling fondly at her. She wraps her arms around me hugging me closely. The warm feeling I missed dearly and the empty feeling inside disappeared once again.
