I told you don't start

                                    

                                          

It's around 4am and at this point I'm exhausted I'm on the floor sitting and folding my sweats while Mattia is hanging my shirts with hangers. I start falling asleep at this point. Mattia wakes me up and tells me I can go to bed but then he's going to be up all night or early morning doing all the work and he still won't be done I know that for a fact. 
Y/n: We can finish this in the morning or something let's go to bed it's really late I can see that you're very tired
Mattia: I honestly don't mind at all I just don't want to be alone I'd rather be in your presence if you don't mind 
Y/n: How about this we both can sleep or you can take a nap and wake up and continue cleaning
Mattia: I'll go take a nap on the couch then goodni-
Y/n: You can sleep in my bed it's fine
I just want to be held I'm not going to lead him on or anything I just don't feel like sleeping alone tonight. Besides the bed is big enough and he can have one side and I'll have the other it's fine.
Mattia: Are you sure? I really don't mind at all besides I know you hate sharing a bed
Y/n: You can have your side and I'll have mine and I know you love my bed you've stated it multiple times
Mattia: If you insist then alright 
What do you mean insist I'm just offering. He's probably going to be on the edge of the bed anyways. He takes his hoodie off. I thought he was going to be shirtless at first but he has a shirt on underneath what a relief. I take my side and cover myself with the blanket and he gets on his side of the bed and covers himself with the blanket as well.
Mattia: I always forget how comfortable your bed is
Y/n: I know that's why I had you do the organizing so I'd have more time in bed doing nothing
Mattia: I have more organizing to do in the morning I'm hoping you'll forget about it when you wake up
Y/n: Not a chance if it means more time to sleep and stay in bed your doing it for me
Mattia: I know but thanks for letting me sleep in your bed again
Y/n: It's no big deal i can't let you be tired and organize everything for me while you're tired and cold.
Mattia: Goodnight y/n
Y/n: Goodnight Mattia
I tried falling asleep but it just didn't work for some reason I just couldn't sleep. I tried moving around to get more comfortable but it wasn't working. 
Mattia: Why can't you sleep 
He turns over to face me this is the first time in so long we're face to face in the same bed together. I can feel the butterflies forming and they need to go away.
Y/n: I don't know 
Mattia: I know it's because you like being in the middle being able to move around how do you not know that
Y/n: How do you know that 
Mattia: Because I know you I'm not stupid you know. Are you sure you want me on the bed I can sleep on the ground or something
The truth is I didn't like sleeping alone when I was in my apartment one night someone tried breaking in I was in panic because I didn't know what to do I always have a habit of locking the door when I sleep now. I always have pepper spray or something that I can use to defend myself on me at all times. The guy who broke in was arrested because I had called the cops but I always think what if. What if he broke the lock in the closet and found me. It's scary to think about honestly. I never told my parents, didn't tell anyone, but I started locking my door and keeping stuff near me when I slept. I made sure I called my friends and made them sleep on call with me for most nights, sometimes I didn't even sleep because I was always terrified someone would kill me in my sleep or do something bad. I got therapy and it helped but sometimes I get scared. I used to invite friends and cousins over for sleepovers almost every night just so I wouldn't be alone. I know that I love being alone but not feeling alone that's just terrifying.