Eternal sunshine

                                    

                                          
Saturday morning
The sound of Gabriella's cries through the baby monitor woke me up, I was confused of where I was. I woke Jermaine up once I realised I'm with him and his baby is crying. "Gabby needs you" I said with my sleepy voice. Jermaine is a deep sleeper, I think Gabby should come sleep this side because the baby monitor doesn't wake him up. 
He kissed me before waking up and attending to Gabby. "Daddy's coming" he said and I found it cute. Jermaine is such a cute dad, he is so gentle with her, it made my ovaries hurt. I rubbed my face as I got out of bed and made my way to his bathroom. I looked for spare toothbrushes and luckily, I found one. I brushed my teeth while noticing my beautiful skin. I washed my face with cold water and wiped it with a towel. 
Which shirt can I wear? I thought to myself as I pulled out his grey shirt which looked like a dress for me. I made my way to the dinning room and I packed up everything that was out of place. I opened the curtains and windows before making my way to the kitchen. I took out 2 eggs and bacon. I'm making pancakes for us, I don't know how Gabby's stuff work, I don't even want to overstep so I'll leave it to her father.
I put on my H.E.R. Playlist and I danced to As I am. I made the eggs while loading the dishwasher and I turned to see Jermaine standing in the corner and admiring me. "You creep!" I laughed and he hugged me from the back. "I can't admire my girl?" He asked with his husky voice. He kissed my neck while holding onto me tightly. "You need to train him to get used to me, I can't keep up with his erections" I said and he laughed. "Every little thing you do gets him excited" he shrugged as he took out the plates.
"How many times have we had sex? I'm tired! We're like flipping Anastasia and Christian" I said and he laughed exposing his beautiful smile. "We can make our own movie" he said and I playfully pushed him. "You've been talking about this for a while, it's not happening" I said and he pulled a sad face. "No fair!" He crossed his arms and I shrugged. 
We slowly danced to Take you there and I was finished making breakfast. Jermaine pushed the coffee table away so Gabby has space for playtime. We sat in there, I mainly watched Jermaine play with Gabby and how gentle he was. It was so cute to watch. I started wondering him as my baby's father. It's a stretch, I shouldn't be thinking about it now. I'm still young and what if we don't last forever because you know, good things never last. However, he'd make a great dad, especially to girls.
"Why are you looking at me like that? You want one of these? I can make it happen" he said and I laughed as I shake my head. We were both thinking the same thing and that's the scary thing about being with an older man. He is ready for babies and I'm only 19, life hasn't started for me yet. "I don't want one of those, I already have one" I said pointing at Gabby and he smiled so hard. With due time, I'm going to have to be Gabby's stepmom. A mother when he is here with his dad, I'm going to have to do somethings for her, I'm going to have to help out in the house with her so I have to get ready.
"What are we doing today?" Jermaine asked after putting her to sleep. " I don't know, I thought maybe we could go out for dinner" I asked and he nodded. "That's a good idea, I just need to call my mom to come over and look after Gabby. The same mother who birthed you and Jabari, I need to tell him. "I need clothes to wear though, I need to go back home and fetch them" I said and he nodded. 
"Do you think my mom should come over or I should drop her off at my mother's place?" He asked me and I thought about it. "Drop her off at your mother's place maybe?" I asked and he called her immediately. Things are moving too fast and the longer I take to tell him, the harder it will be to tell him.
"Baby?" I called him nervously, feeling the food all coming back up instead of words. I rushed to the toilet and let out all the guilt and anxiety out. I can't tell him about Jabari. "Babe, are you okay?" He asked me as he held my braids back and I repeatedly threw up.
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