"Yeah, right. Phana is one of your best friends. He specifically came here because you are here. You can hide his affair easily." I said but still took the glass and sat down facing the view of the city.
"That's where you are wrong. Yes, he is my friend. But being his friend doesn't mean I'm automatically choosing his side if he is wrong. He came here because he wanted to. He knows I'm against what he is doing, and I'm not his accomplice in any way." said Beam, taking a sip of his drink.
"Why are you doing this then? Why did you bring me here if not to help him?" I questioned him, scanning his face for any signs he was lying. But he didn't give me anything. Instead, he just shrugged.
"I just wanted to." he said, and I sighed, standing up.
"That's not good enough." I stood up. "I think it is better if I leave." I said gulping the rest of my drink before putting the glass on the table.
"You are my friend too. At least I consider you one even if we don't interact much." he said, which made me stop for a second, looking for any signs I couldn't trust him. Instead, I saw sincerity in his eyes. I sat back down, pouring myself another drink.
"I'm sorry. You have never given me a reason not to trust you. This is just so fucked up." I sighed, leaning my head against the back of the couch and looking up.
"I get it, Forth. Just know I don't agree with them cheating. I sure as hell wasn't covering for them. I'm sorry this happened to you." he said sincerely placing an arm on my shoulder to comfort me.
"Thank you Beam." I said focusing on my drink.
"If you don't mind me asking. How was your relationship with Wayo before this? After you two got together we lost contact." He asked and I could sense he was genuinely curious. I pondered on his question before answering.
"It was good for a while. But Wayo is way more needy than I can handle sometimes." I said, running my hands through my hair, clearly frustrated. "I try to be a good boyfriend I really do. But he just needs constant attention. I'm busy too sometimes, but he doesn't understand that. I love to take care of my partners, but sometimes I feel like I'm more like his father than a boyfriend. I'm also a really affectionate person, and of course, I respect his boundaries, but he will barely let me kiss him. To be completely honest, I've been rethinking my relationship with him for a while. We had a talk a couple of weeks ago. I told him all of this. Told him I would try harder if he worked on this too. He was mad for a couple of days, and then I thought he was improving. Now that I really think about it, I can see it was probably Phana giving in to all his demands." It felt nice to get it all out of my chest.
"I'm really sorry about that Forth." He said and I analyzed him for a second.
"But you don't seem sorry." I said raising an eyebrow and he sighed.
"I am sorry that you're hurt. But I could see it coming. Not the cheating part that took me by surprise. But you being incompatible with Wayo that I could predict. But I already knew him and how spoiled he was by everyone around him." he gulped down his drink before looking at me intently. He knew I would try to look for any signs he wasn't telling the truth.
"That information would have been useful a couple of months ago." I said and he rolled his eyes.
"Yeah, right. You were charmed by him. Nothing I could've said back then would've changed your mind. Besides we've never been so close for me to tell you." He said while pouring himself another drink.
"Then why tell me now?" I asked curiosity getting the best of me.
"I can tell your rose-colored glasses have been taken off. You finally see him exactly for what he is." he said and I was shocked.
"I guess you're right. It still hurts to be cheated on. With freaking Phana of all people too." I said finishing my drink and I was losing count of how many I'd had. This time Beam was the one to refill my drink.
"I don't know you sound more betrayed than hurt to me." He said, and that left me wondering. There was a silence. I was lost in my thoughts. Beam didn't seem to mind the silence.
We continued drinking and talking about stupid things. I have to admit he helped me to take my mind off everything. It was nice spending time with him. It had been a while since I last saw him. After fighting over Wayo we stopped hanging out for obvious reasons. 
"I thought you started hating me when I got together with Wayo." I said thinking back to the day he chose me instead of Phana. What has driven me crazy this past couple of months is the look on his face. He came with Pha who was trying to pick up Wayo at his faculty but I had beat him to it. That's when Phana told him to choose and he chose me. While Pha was trying to convince him I turned to look at Beam who looked hurt. Before I could even blink, he realized I was looking at him, and his expression changed to a cold one. Making me question if it even happened. But I haven't been able to shake that look from my head because I couldn't understand the reason. After that Beam grabbed Phanas elbow and dragged him from there and that was the last time I saw him until today.
"I could never hate you." He said, and there it was again that hurt look flashing for just a second. A crack in his facade. I don't know if it was the alcohol but I moved closer to him grabbing his face in my arms.
"Why?" I asked, and even if he tried to keep his distant and cold demeanor, his eyes didn't lie. They were full of emotions I just couldn't comprehend. He put a hand on my chest making more distance.
"Because I just can't why does it matter." He said glaring at me this time. But he wasn't mad that much I could tell.
"Beam, do you..." I said, analyzing him for a second. I sat down as realization hit me. This time he didn't hide he was scared.
"What?" he said barely above a whisper. He didn't like what I was about to say.
"Do you have feelings for Phana?" I asked. He looked at me for a second then scoffed. His facade was back again and I knew I was wrong.
"You are drunker than I thought." He said, shaking his head and letting out a laugh. After that, he stood up from the couch. It was already nighttime. We have been drinking for hours. "You can stay here tonight. There are a few rooms pick whichever one you like. Keep on drinking or do whatever you want. I will be in that one." He said before turning around and disappearing to a door on the left.
I sighed, grabbing my forgotten drink. I sat there thinking what I should do. Obviously, we are over. But should I confront him? I don't know what to do. I sat there for what felt like a long time. When I got up, I felt dizzy. It wasn't that much of a surprise after how much I had to drink. I made my way to the first door I saw and just threw myself on the bed. I wanted to leave, but I was in no condition to drive my bike.