DREAM P.O.V.
I held my daughter's hands for the first time talking to them as I walked with them to school. I never imagined being able to do this. My heart was truly broken. I missed everything, literally everything! First words, first steps, first time they clapped their hands, first time they babbled, their cries and not being able to sooth them. Their first day of school! They were so smart, and well mannered. Demon has done such an amazing job raising them.
Do you want me to call you mommy or Dream? Autumn asked with one eye brow raised.
Whatever you'd like to, long as you're comfortable! I smiled gracefully.
Are you single? My daddy needs a girlfriend. Winter giggled. I looked at him and he rolled his eyes in hate.
Come on it's time to get to school! He said as he shut her up. They both grabbed my hands as we walked out the bakery.
I came out here with my organization that helps women and girls with mental health issues. Just as a self healing journey reward for everything we've been doing, never in a million years did I think I would run into my daughters and get to meet them.
After I went to see Demon in jail I fell off bad. Then finding out my girls were taken away from me and put into foster care I completely lost it. The nurse I beat up dropped her charges and some how some way my record got clean. No arrest, no restraining orders, nothing, the only thing I could think of was Demon cause he the only person I knew in this world who has pull like that. I've made my life a living hell. When I was in the psych ward the first thing they did was take me to counseling and I let everything out and I mean everything I didn't hold not one feeling back.
I started to build a bond with my counselor she was like a mother too me. Then it hit me that's what I was missing all along and why I was the way I was and doing what I did just acting out like a bad child.
I didn't realize how much of a repeated cycle I was in. My mother wasn't shit to me so I destroyed my own life and became not shit to my girls and it was when they needed me the most just like when I needed my mom the most. She was never there. I was determined to fix my life. I went to therapy, went to every court date for my girls. What the judge told me to do I did! I was told I had to go to therapy twice a week, I did! I was told I had to take parenting classes for a year. I did! Never missed one class and was always there on time. It was so much shit I had to do before I could even just get a name of who their foster parents were. I did everything without hesitation and not once complained. When I was able to get in touch with the Greens which who were their foster parents they played in my face. We would set up dates at the adoption agency and they wouldn't show up then a few days later they would come up with an excuse of why they couldn't come. But they would always ask me for money and say it was for the girls and I gave them thousands and thousands of dollars. I almost went completely broke because of so much I would give them. But they still playing my face. Never let me talk on the phone to them. They would tell me they had bad service or their phones were off. I knew everything was a lie I just didn't want them to just say fuck it you're never seeing them because they did have the power they were in their custody.
It broke my spirits down knowing they were fighting me to adopt them and I was trying to get them back. For 5 years it was nothing but back and fourth of courts, dates getting pushed back. So during that 5 years I stayed with my head up and started an organization called for girls by girls. And I worked hand and hand with different therapist to help girls with mental health issues, getting out the streets and so much more. Kinda like what I was doing before with trouble teens. It all hit hard for me because it was so close to home. I worked on myself and asked God to forgive me and please give me a chance to just meet them one day. I was fighting the Greens and the FBI all at the same time. I told them so many times over the years I didn't recall anything and couldn't take the stand to testify against him either. I refused to but then my lawyer came out and told me that I can't testify against him anyways because we're still legally married. The judge who was handling our divorce had to requse his self because of something and that's all I knew so our divorce didn't get finalized which pissed the feds off even more because it's against the law for a married couple to testify against one another.
After healing and getting closer to God and praying on everything I ended up here. All I wanted was to meet them and look God works in mysterious ways. I'll never forget this moment.
Will we get to see you again? Winter asked sadly.
I looked up at Demon and he wanted to say no so bad but he didn't. "You will see her later no go to class. I love you, and I love you!" He kissed broth their foreheads and gave them huge hugs. I was in love with the bond he had created with them. They got so close over this past year. I still can't believe he had actually broke out of jail and stole them and fled the country. I remember seeing it all over the news and it's all people would and could talk about.
So many people tried to get in touch with me the Greens even threatened to sue me thinking I had something to do with them disappearing at first. But my mind was immediately at ease when I put two and two, together. I know Demon would never let anything happen to him and he always wanted to be a great father so I wasn't tripping on them disappearing. They were in great hands and I wasn't wrong.
Bye Dream! Autumn hugged me tightly.
Bye Dream! Winter smiled hugging me tightly.
I'll see you girls later okay! I smiled hugging them tighter. They ran off into their school and I was just so happy and filled with joy.
"Thank you, for this!"
Don't thank me, I didn't do it for you. I did it for them! They're starting to ask questions about you, all the time! They needed their mother. But I don't trust you, and we'll be gone in the next 12 hours...
Gone? Gone where?
Nun yo damn business! You think ima sit here and let the Feds and whoever the hell else come and find me because of you! You already ran yo dick suckers, I wouldn't be surprised if by the time I make it back home they waiting to arrest me the way you fuckin run yo mouth and snitch.
I have no intentions on dropping your location to anyone. Please believe me!
Believe you? You want me to fuckin believe you? Bitch please I don't believe shit you say and I would never in this world trust you again. And I for damn sure won't give you a second opportunity for you to get my girls taken away from me again.
I know I deserve all of this anger and hostility towards me. I do and I take full on responsibility for everything. I'm sorry and I can't express how sorry I am for what I did. You ment the world to me and I destroyed us. But this.....look Demon I'm not asking for a second chance. I can live with the fact that you absolutely hate me for life but please don't take them away from me again. I'll do anything to prove to you that I can earn your trust again. Please!
You can never earn my trust again! He turned to walk away.
Wait! I ran in front of him. "I know they are going to ask about me again, here's my number, my email address, and the place that I'm staying at for the rest of the week." I took out my notepad and wrote everything down pushing the piece of paper in his pocket. He walked off leaving me standing here.
