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Flashback ❤️‍🩹
Jungkook's POV
Am I that dumb to his mind? Oh I forgot that he's the dumb here--- an actual failure to hold his wife to his life haha. And now he is showing strict standards on me!? Like what the fuck?
I was with my friends, hoseok was talking about his family who is so fucking role playing the villain in his life. Yoongi and hoseok was so love sick boys infront me. Hobi loved yoongi and still loves him.
Hobi's father is an asshole who doesn't like a guy like yoongi. There is no any matter to hold hobi from loving him. Yoongi's parents died two years ago, hobi was the one who all he had. Now hobi himself breaking up from their relationship. 
This is the fucking thing I hates the most. Why can't hobi run away with him? And what the actual fuck is yoongi does? He's willing to broke their relationship.
It's confusing me!
I hate love! That damn pathetic feelings couldn't stay with any persons, can't last longer. Tomorrow is yoongi's parents death anniversary. I'm not that much close with him--- he's elder than me. He knows that I'm an asshole and brat.
Hobi forcing me to go to the cemetery, i sighed and agreed. That the exact time Appa called me.
"Where are you jungkook?" I gritted my teeth because I hate the way he talks.
"With friends right now I'll call you bac---
"I want you to come home this instant jungkook, I've something to talk about." I gritted my teeth again and took a deep breath.
"No I can't I'm busy." I was about t hang up the call suddenly he said--
"If you didn't come home this right away I'm gonna do what I can do" and just like that he hanged up the call. This old man getting on nerves sometimes.
Yoongi and jimin got some things to settle up, I think jimin himself thinking about yoongi cheating on him with his ex. I sighed it's not my thing to think about. 
It's been weeks that me and taehyung talked properly with eachother. I like his company, with him I can be myself. He won't force me to talk anything or do anything. I totally avoided Jiwoon after that incident, I won't talk to him---
As I got into my home I was welcomed by my father, but I was shocked to see taehyung inside of my house. Did father invited him? Does he know that taehyung likes me?
"Oh taehyung?" When I softly called his name he was so shocked to see him---  I saw him coughing suddenly.
"Are you okay buddy?" It was my father, oh they seems so close. Am I missing something?
"Appa? Why did you called him here? What's he doing here?" I asked our of the curiosity. I can see taehyung's sweaty face.
"Oh actually I've arranged your marriage with him kook. You guys are already dating and about to graduate so I think it's the perfect time to get married, and after that you can sign as CEO of our company no?" Hmm....what!? What the fuck?
As my eyes got wider I looked at them again and again.
"What the freak you're saying appa!? You can't be saying something like that" I spatted out. He looked at me, showing his emotions less face. 
"I didn't threw any prank on you kook. You're going to marry him--- that's it" he said as if it's nothing. I glared at taehyung who seems shivering slightly.
"No I won't, I can't " I just said it. He just shrugged off my reply and served a piece of cheesecake to taehyung, without giving a fuck to me.
"Appa? Are you even listening to me?"
"I didn't requested you to marry him , it's a command" i gritted my teeth and looked at taehyung who is now looking down as if something interesting he found on the floor.
"You're with him too tae? Look at me!" He visibly flinched when I yelled at him--- oh that made my chest tight slightly.
"N-no--
"He said he loves you. I want him as my son in law kook. And you guys are going to marry on this weekend." With that appa just walked towards taehyung. I fists my palms and walked out from the that hell hole.
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I didn't thought that I'll be ended up in same building where I used to sleep with my parents. Screaming and crying over everything--- I just got that no one in the world understand him--- his pain and fears.
Taehyung didn't know about his family matter jungkook that's why he agreed to marry you. But still everyone knows that I'm not into these shits--- and taehyung and i aren't--- he knows that I didn't loved him and I can't love him---
He still likes me--- like he really likes me. Maybe he thought it's the best time to get me? I can't marry him!--- why can't I marry him? It's because i--- I'm afraid, that I'll be ended up like my father one day. What if taehyung cross the limit that I created for others? What if he makes me observe him? What if he grab my attention? And what if I starts to get feelings for him!?
The fuck!
I always wanted to be like Appa, but now I'm afraid because I'm damn sure I'll be like my father once I started to love him back, spoil him with my love, make him happiest person in the world. And I can do everything to make him happy but what if he turns out like my mom? And I'll be like my father?
I can't but make myself bleed to death.
Taehyung should know my past, maybe he could understand more about me and will called off the marriage for me. 
But what if he didn't? That he wants me and force me to marry him and have a family with him? 
What will I do? Should I ran away? I can't oppose my father's proposal, oh god I'm in a tragic loop.
I should've talked to him---
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Author Kim
TBC