Chapter 14 - Elena

                                    

                                          
I wake up in Dorian's arms and snuggle into his chest. His breathing is even and his heart is slow. I think he's asleep. I can feel Nate's fingers in my hair and I try to let the movement of the car lull me back to sleep, but then I remember my little panic attack in the woods and my eyes fly open.
Nate's lips curl into a smile when he sees that I'm awake and he leans down to kiss me.
"How are you feeling, gorgeous?" He murmurs in my ear.
"Embarrassed."
His eyes narrow in confusion and I chuckle. "Thank you, Nate."
"For what?"
"Just... everything." I can't get into how much he means to me and how much they all mean to me right now, I'll start bawling my eyes out. They way he talked me down back in the woods, and stopped me from freaking out completely just by breathing with me. He's so good at calming me down. They all are, but Nate and Deacon really seem to have a knack for it.
I hate that I can't seem to get past everything. It all comes back at the worst times and I feel paralyzed by it. My guys make it better. The way they love me makes everything better and I know that it's real, but sometimes my mind just tries to convince me that it's not.
Nate strokes my face, but doesn't say anything and I lean into his touch.
Seeing Tony with Nat was... fucking terrifying. He's a real asshole. All he cares about is getting his dick wet, and I know he'll fuck her. He probably already has. Especially if he's been with her for the last two days. I can't even begin to imagine what that would do to Nat. She's such a badass and so strong, I hope it doesn't break her.
"Where's Justin?" I ask, realizing the passenger's seat is empty.
"We dropped him off at his compound so he can get started on looking into those permits," Jensen informs me.
"Permits?"
"Apparently someone requested building permits for a property on the upper north side. It was for some kind of underground bunker."
I nod, that could definitely be something.
"You should wake him up," Nate says, motioning to Dorian. "We're almost home."
I look up at Dorian; his head is half resting on the back of the seat, half on Nate's shoulder, and I smile at the sight of him. He always looks so peaceful when he's asleep. He usually has this permanent crease between his eyes but his face is so relaxed right now, I hate waking him up and disturbing his peace.
I turn around in his lap so I can straddle his legs, and I trail my lips up the side of his neck until I reach his jaw. I suck on his skin lightly and he starts to stir. His grip on me tightens and he groans in my ear, "Mmm, I love waking up to you, Elena."
My heart skips a beat at his words and my lips find his. I'm very aware of Nate next to me, his hand resting on my thigh while Dorians explore my body. I feel myself heating up. It doesn't take much for me to want them. Just the way they look at me turns me on.
Our kiss gets a little more intense and Jensen clears his throat loudly, "We're home."
I glance up to see that we're pulling into the compound and my stomach flutters wildly at the thought of seeing the twins and Deacon. I look back down at Dorian and caress his face. He just looks so exhausted. "Baby, you need to get at least a couple hours of sleep in an actual bed."
He shakes his head, "I have to go check in with Noah."
"Nate and I can do that," I say, and Nate grunts but doesn't disagree.