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liz's POV:
2 month's later.
Everyday was the same.
I don't sleep at night or just for some hours before I got woken up from nightmares or better said, long lost memories. 
At about 6 am I then get up, put on sport's wear and train. Run for 1 and a halve hours, strengthning, and then I do combat for several hours. It's everyday the same routine.
After that I go to my room and take a long cold shower.
After that I most of the time stay in my room till dinner. Sometimes at that time there where meetings. In those meetings I would normally not say anything and keep quiet.
I wouldn't look at anyone. 
I always keep my gaze straight ahead of me even at a conversation, I don't dare to look up. 
The only time i'll say something is when they ask me something, but most of the time i'll just nod or shake my head. 
Every once in a week, I join dinner and when they'd ask if I ate when I wasn't at dinner. I'd say "late after you". 
That was my routine for the last 4 months. I kinda like it, they just left me be. 
That's what I asked for and that's what I got. 
They don't ash a lot of questions and they include me in missions. 
I also have to train with them every 2 weeks but that's fine because I just do it, but always hold back. 
Today was one of the days we trained together.
I always hated it but this time it was even worse, some of them looked... worried?
and like they were pitying me...
I was there now for two months and they never did that, so I kinda Ignored it, but now that it's late at night I think about it a lot. 
I don't even have a reason hypothesis.
I just keep replaying the scenerio in my head interpreting things that are absolute nonsense but okay. 
I can't do anything about it. 
I just sit on the ground like every night and wait for the sun to come up.
Eventualy the clock turns 6am again. 
I begin my every day routine. As soon as I reach the gym Friday speaks.
"Goodmorning Liz, there is a meeting in room two at 10am." 
I don't respond but make a mental note to stop early today and go to the meeting. 
It's probably a mission and nothing interesting. 
I continue with my training. Right now I'm going for a run, like every morning. I went running for two hours straight on the treadmill, normally I go running outside but I was afraid I wouldn't be on time then.
I continue training.
My thoughts are blank. 
That's why I love working out, it's the only time I can think for myself or just shut my thoughts off. 
This sort of controle, I really like, it's the only thing I can controle in my live. 
It's now 9: 30, that's exactly enough time for me to shower and get ready.
I shower, put a braid in my hair, put on a black t-shirt, black jeans, I put over my t-shirt a lether jacket with leather gloves to cover up my metal arm and last but not least my combat boots that I still got from hydra.