*What Goes Up Must Come Down

                                    

                                          
I can't believe today is the day. The day Julia confronts Luke. We've talked to her counselor, Dr. Cohen. We were advised on what to do. Julia was granted the rest of the week off from the Avalon after she shut down in the beginning of the week, which is the opposite of what I thought would have happened. Dr. Cohen felt genuinely bad and said Julia needed time to rest before confronting her husband. She agreed Julia would be a mess until this day was dealt with and wouldn't accomplish much self- healing at the Avalon until we got this part done and over with.
Last night, neither of us got a wink of sleep. Julia tossed and turned, nervous about today. Hell, we didn't even have sex and that's what she usually uses to escape from reality. But she was too wound up in her own head. So now, it's five in the morning, and we've both given up on sleep. Instead, we decide to get up and get ready for the day. 
"I'll be right there with you, ok?" I  pour the shampoo in my hand and begin to wash Julia's hair in the shower. She's already in tears thinking about it. It's times like these a person should be allowed to take an Ativan to calm their nerves. But she can't. The one thing that would help her is the one thing that she's addicted to. "You won't be alone."
"Thank you. I love you." Julia says and kisses me softly. She's getting more and more used to saying that phrase to me and it's all I ever want to hear. Especially when she initiates it like this. It feels- genuine.
"I love you too, Jules. Now let's go get divorced today, yeah?" 
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*Julia*
To say I'm nervous to see Luke is an understatement. Yet I wear my pink sundress and make myself pretty just to make it hurt a little more for Luke. Nate can't keep his hands off me today and I've already had to swat him away numerous times while wearing this sundress.
James is being handsy too, which is now just confusing me more in life.
 James will stay behind with Jonah and Casey, Paul will be in the hall while Trisha sees Jeremy for her therapy session, and Nate and I will be meeting Luke in one of the private conference rooms of the Marriott. Mainly because Nate wanted to be with me but thinks being out in the open in the lobby will just draw attention. Especially when we called to book the conference room and heard a Girls Volleyball Team will also be here for the weekend. Prompting the hiding of Nate Hollan to be a good idea.
"I have everything, James." I say while we eat lunch together. "I've got the divorce papers ready to be signed. I've got every single journal for him to take. I hope he reads them all so he knows what I've been dealing with."
I take a bite of Mac and Cheese while he attempts to scoop some up with his fork to get some as well. He's doing real good lately. He can pretty much feed himself. I just watch him to make sure he can get the food on his fork but other than that, his coordination is coming back to him. 
"You're doing so well, you know that? I'm proud of you, James. I know it's hard and can be frustrating."  I help him get food on his fork and continue on. He squeezes my hand to acknowledge me.
"Almost ready, love?" Nate comes out, looking good.  He always puts effort in to himself. He's a bit high maintenance. But today, today like me, he's doing it with a purpose. It's no secret we have been linked romantically thanks to media attention and I'm sure Luke is aware.  Nate wants to stick it to him just as badly as I do.  
Nate knows what he's doing wearing those damn purple pants and black polo shirt, showing off his biceps. He's been spending more and more time in the gym now that he got cleared to do so and it's noticed.
"Casey is gonna take over so I can go soon, is that OK, James?" I wait for him to nod and once he does, I kiss the corner of his mouth and stand up. James surprises me by standing as well and wraps his arms around me, bringing me in to his chest to hug me. He doesn't care that Nate is right in the kitchen, so I hug him and let him hold me as long as he wants. This is James letting me know everything will be ok.