Chapter 4

                                    

                                          
Dance.
What if I could conquer dance, which I never improved at even after six years of being a trainee, because of my terrible motor skills?
I missed countless debut opportunities while I was a trainee. Some of my friends who joined later than me debuted before me.
I was even kicked out of the debut group after barely making it.
It was all because of dance.
The main reason why I gave up on my idol dream, and why TNT fired me, was dance.
But what if I could overcome dance
To find out, I repeated the same experiment as before.
I danced the way I knew how.
Then I watched the original choreographer on Mitube and followed along for a second recording.
When I looked at the result, I couldn't close my mouth.
Oh my god. It worked?
It was a thought I had just in case, but it was really possible.
The gap between the two videos was less than a minute, but my movements were amazingly different.
I was speechless.
It felt like the stars in the night sky were falling on me.
It was distant and unreal.
The cause of my lifelong regret, and why I was cut from the debut group, was solved so easily.
Was it a dream?
I collapsed on the ground.
The coldness of the winter sand seeped through my jeans, but I sat there blankly and looked at the sky.
The stars scattered in the night sky.
The moon half-hidden by the clouds.
I recalled what happened today, while taking in all of that.
From saving the old man and watching an action movie at the hospital.
To doing an interview and going to the playground to test my ability.
None of this was a dream.
At first, I denied reality, thinking it was impossible. But the more I experimented, the more certain I became.
I didn't know why, but I clearly gained some ability.
A kind of superpower.
I laughed out of disbelief.
Haha
As if I had gone crazy, I laughed for a long time. Then I brushed off my butt and got up.
Now dance is not a problem.
I told Seok-hwan hyung that I would give up on being an idol, but in fact, I auditioned several times after leaving TJ Entertainment.
And I failed every time.
The judges who were happy at my visuals and vocals frowned when they saw my wooden dance moves. And when they heard how long I was a trainee, they shook their heads.
They meant that if I couldn't do better after six years, there was no point in trying more.
But now its different.
Dance was no longer an obstacle for me.
Then, I could walk again.
I could dream again.