Fear

                                    

                                          
~Dani's POV~
"What?" Elizabeth asks I stare in to her eyes. My eyes have been burning from my tears. I hate crying. 
"My aunt. His sister called me and told me." I say barely seeing her though my glossy eyes.
"Baby I'm so sorry." Her arms pull me into her chest. I begin to sob uncontrollably. "Baby what do you need from me?" 
I shake my head. "N-nothing. I'm fine." I lie I think. Am I ok? I mean your dad just died. But he didn't love me. Yes he did. He wanted to fix it! It never should've have happened! 
She pulls me away from her chest and looks at me. "Baby you're not fine. You just found out your dad died. You can be upset. If we need to go h-
"I said I'm fine!" My eyes go wide at the sound of my voice. She doesn't look scared or hurt by it. "Baby I'm sorry." I immediately apologize.
She shakes her head. "It's ok. We're going to head back to California in the morning. Ok?" She says and I just look at her. She gives a slight smile and gets up from her kneeling position and leaves the room. Fuck! 
~Sunday the Day after Thanksgiving~
We're all packed and ready to go back to California. Elizabeth didn't sleep in the house with me last night and I have never felt so alone then that. I didn't mean to yell at her. She looked so calm. Like she's used to it and that hurts even more knowing I might have just reminded her of him. 
We ate breakfast with everyone this morning and she didn't even let me feed her. She barely even touched her plate and again it hurt. "What happened with you and my mom?" Shiloh asks as we pack up the rental car. Elizabeth is at the door saying bye to her parents. 
I sigh. "I um-I yelled at her Shiloh." He frowns. 
"Why would you do that?"
I swallow. "Someone close to me passed away and I thought I was fine. But I wasn't and I took it out on her. I didn't mean to Shiloh. I promise." 
He sighs and shakes his head. "I'm not mad but mom seems to be really upset. I think you should apologize. I like you Dani but I don't want my mom to hurt again anymore." He says and gets in the car. I sigh and look back at the front of the house to see them hugging and talking. 
"Dani!" Kat calls me and I walk to them. She smiles softly at me and I smile back. I stand next to Elizabeth and she grabs my hand. The feeling feels like home itself. She smiles at me and then heads to the car. "I'm sorry for your lost. But remember you have family here that are here for you. Don't keep it all in. Loss can change a person. Don't let it change you." She says and I nod. "Come here." We hug tight. "It'll be ok. She will be there for you. No matter what." She says in my ear and kisses my cheek. 
"It was a pleasure having you here Dani. Take care of yourself." Shawn says and I nod.
"Thank you. All of you for welcoming me. It means so much to me." They smile and nod and I head to the car in the drivers seat. I look to see Shiloh with his headphones on and playing a game. "Elizabeth." I call for her and she looks at me.
"Yes baby." 
"I'm so sorry for last night. That's not me and will never be me." She nods and smiles.
"I know baby. Let's go home." She says and I nod still feeling like a major ass and drive us to the airport. We make it to the airport and I'm more calmer than I was at first but still a little nervous. She grabs my hand as we take our seats and closes her eyes to go to sleep. I get Shilohs headphones and let my music mute out everything else. 
"You're just like him!" Elizabeth yells in my face with hate in her eyes.
"No I'm not!" I cry with my tears flooding around me.
"Your father would be disappointed in you sinner!" My mother yells drowning me in my own tears. 
"No he wouldn't! He wanted to try!" I grip her shirt to pull myself up. "Right?" 
"He died knowing you were a disgrace to this family!" She pushes me further and I land on hard ground. I groan and stand up looking around the familiar home. I walk in and hear Elizabeth's beautiful voice. 
"Baby?" I call her and find her and a mystery guy I assume is Samuel but I can't put out his face or voice. I've only realized I've never seen the guy before. I see them and  Shiloh laughing around the dining table. "Elizabeth?
They look at me and the figure smirks. "I'll take care of them. Don't worry." He aims a gun at me and it goes off.
"Dani. Baby! Wake up!" I jump up and feel my clothes sticking to me. I look up and see Elizabeth and Shiloh looking at me with concern. "Baby are you ok?" 
I swallows catching my breath. "Yeah just bad dream." I say and she nods. 
"We're here baby." She says and I look around and see we're the only ones on the plane. I nod and we get off. "I'll drive." She says taking my keys to my Jeep and we get in. We make it back to the house. I don't think I should call it home right now with how distant she's being with me right now. "Go take a shower baby and get some sleep." She says and I nod. 
"Elizabeth?" She looks at me. "Can-can I." She grabs me by the collet of my shirt and pulls me into a kiss. I release the biggest breath in relief. 
"Get some sleep baby." I nod and go upstairs. I take a shower and let the past 24 hours wash over me hoping I actually do become fine. I haven't had nightmares in years. I got them a lot after the first time they kicked me out of the house. He's dead? Is that why he wanted to make up what he did? How? Why? "Dani?" I snap out of my thoughts and open the shower door. She's standing in her robe and hair down. My she's gorgeous. 
"Yeah?" I answer hearing my hoarse voice. Was I crying?
"Are you ok baby?" 
"Not really but I will be. I just need some time." I say and she nods understandably. "I'll be out in a minute." She nods and leaves. I get out the shower and walk into the room and see her in her robe in the bed with a book in hand. "Hey baby?" 
She looks up from her book and smiles. "Yes."
I play with my fingers. A habit I picked up with being around her. "Is there something else wrong?" She looks at me confused. "At thanksgiving you seemed distracted by something. Like something was bothering you. What is it?"
She sighs. Well that's not good. "We don't need to talk about that right now. I'm tired baby." She says and I frown as she puts her book down and lays down. 
"Uh ok. Are you sure?" I ask again and she nods and pats my side of the bed. I nod and get in the bed and she puts her head on my chest. 
"I love you Dani." That sounded different than normal.
"I love you too Elizabeth. So much." I say and she hums and her breaths go heavier telling me she's asleep. Something I can't find myself doing out of fear of the dreams and the fear that she won't be there when I wake up.