concert

                                    

                                          
Maddie and Theo both fell asleep after sound check in Taylor's dressing room, I just sat beside them. Watching Taylor get ready for her show, she was chatting away with her stylist. I picked at my fingers. 
"Hey, you okay?" Taylor whispered over to me. I noticed her stylist wasn't here. 
I nodded, "when are we going home?"
She looked taken back, before coming over to me, "sweetheart, you're not going back to that house."
I looked down at my hands as she came over and crouched down infront of me.
"Do you not like it here?" 
I didn't want to tell her I did, I wanted to leave. I couldn't accept the kind behaviour she's been showing us. I just didn't understand why she wanted us. 
"Why do you care?" I mumbled, still not looking at her in the eyes.
"Oh babe." She sighed with a smile, pulling me into her chest. I hated to acknowledge that I actually loved her touch, her contact, her calmness. I loved that she just knew when we needed comfort. I knew that as soon as I let her in, everything would change. We'd be sent away.
"I care so much. You three are so special and deserve so much in life, which you haven't been given." She stroked my head, "I want to give you that."
I didn't say anything to her. I just enjoyed her company and her hug. Her stylist came back in, ready to do her hair. Taylor pulled back from our hug, kissing my head and leaving to go back to her chair.
 
I missed her the second she left. Was she sitting right in front of me? Yes. 
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Maisie's pov
I love Taylor so much. I wished she was my mommy. She treats us like her own kids. She loves and cares for us. I never wanted to leave. Havyn was being annoying about why we have to leave soon. I don't think she likes Taylor much, and I can't understand why. 
When I woke up, Havyn wasn't in the room and Theo was asleep. I scanned the room for someone I knew and my eyes landed on Taylor. Happily, I wandered over to her lightly tapping her leg. 
"Hey sleepy." She beamed at me, opening her arms out for me. I accepted and let her lift me onto her lap. 
"Are you keeping us forever?" I asked, knowing Havyn would hate me for this.
"If I can, I would love to." Taylor smiled, I buried my face into her chest. I heard the door open, it was Havyn coming out of the bathroom. She didn't understand taylor the way Theo and I do. Maybe our parents hurt her more? 
"I have to get into position soon, will you guys be okay in the vip tent?" Taylor looked at Havyn for approval. 
It annoyed me, Havyn wasn't the boss of us. Why does she get to decide everything? 
"Fine." Havyn mumbled, sitting beside Theo. Why is she so rude to Taylor?
Taylor slowly stood up with me in her arms, "ready?" 
Theo sleepily rose and took Havyn's hand, following Taylor and I out of the door. 
A security guard led us to the vip tent to watch the show as Taylor took the stage. I was beyond excited.
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Havyn sat at the back of the tent, keeping an eye on Theo and I dancing at the front. I didn't know why she was ruining it for us. I wanted her to enjoy Taylor the way I do. 
Halfway through the concert, I desperately needed to pee. I was too angry at Havyn to ask her to take me. I noticed she wasn't looking so I slipped away by myself. I was only 4 and probably shouldn't be alone in this huge venue. I scanned the stadium to see if I could spot a toilet sign. I bumped into a tall scary looking man, I fell back onto my bottom. 
"What are you doing all alone, sweetheart?" He looked down at me. I was shaking in fear as I tried to stand up, I wanted Havyn. She always knew how to calm me down. 
I squeezed my eyes shut as he crouched down to my height. Feeling a hand on my shoulder, I spun around to see Havyn with Theo beside her.
"Maisie what the hell." Havyn looked very angry. She never gets annoyed with us. 
"I'm sorry." I felt tears in my eyes.
"Mais, you can't just walk off like that," she grabbed my hand, "what were you thinking?"
"I need to pee." I cried as my tears began to flood out. 
Her expression softened slightly, "you tell me next time, okay?" She wiped my tears off my cheeks.
I nodded as we walked towards the toilets.
Havyns pov
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After I found Maisie, my fears settled and I started feeling less sick. I can't believe she would just walk away like that. Anything could've happened to her. I made them sit with me at the back of the tent for the rest of the show, much to their dismay. 
We found Taylor after the show, Maisie clung onto her for dear life. She was telling me she wasn't happy with me through her actions. I just sighed and held Theo's hand. 
"Hey, did you have fun?" Taylor looked so excited.
Maisie and Theo babbled to Taylor about the whole concert. I just walked behind, they looked happy with Taylor. I just had a gut feeling that something wasn't right. 
We got back to Taylor's and put the little ones to bed. I started to walk to my room, when Taylor spoke.
"Do you want to watch a movie?"
"No thanks." I replied.
"What about a game?" She pestered me.
"I'm good."
"Havyn," she sighed, "can we at least talk? I'm really trying here."
I stared at her, I had no response. 
"Come here." She waved me into her room. I reluctantly followed her. 
We sat down on her bed awkwardly, I didn't know what was coming. 
"Look, I know you're probably struggling to accept help with those two," Taylor started, she didn't even look like she knew where she was going with this.
"But I want to help you."
"Okay thanks." I replied awkwardly.
"No you don't get it, I want to help you as well. Individually. You're struggling with this." She responded softly. 
I nodded slowly, not knowing how she figured this out. 
 
"I just haven't figured out how." She mumbled, I don't think she meant me to hear.
"Just don't leave us." I whispered, knowing she can't promise that.