losing dogs

                                    

                                          
TW:
S.A ,abuse, bullying, death.
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Yoongi was in an ocean when he opened his eyes again. Not an ocean of water, but an ocean of words and thoughts. It was loud. These words were all voiced by Jasmine. He started to swim. Yoongi occasionally stopped and listened to what her words were.
"YOU COME IN WA-A-AVES, WA-A-AVES, WA-A-A-AVES!"
"I PASSED! LESGAURRR"
"this lady in front of me smells like a can of bounce that ass."
"Did I take my Adderall?..."
Yoongi looked up to watch a new selection of words be dumped into the ocean from above. They fell down on him, and ran down him like water.
"A LEECH!?"
"HOW COULD HE SAY THAT SHIT?!"
"HES ACTING AS IF I DID THIS SHIT ON PURPOSE! WHICH I DIDN'T!"
"WHEN I GET UP- actually what's the fucking point?!"
" This nigga is about to find out just how petty I can be."
 Anger was felt in these words. It was hot and it stung Yoongi. Shame waved over him. How could he say such a thing. It was like he was putting the blame on her. And as if he couldn't feel any worse, the small, meek voice of the rest of the words made him feel the guiltiest he's ever felt in his life.
"Does he hate me?"
"Am I ugly to him?" 
" He only said that because I'm not his type."
"Is it because I'm black? Or maybe because I'm darker?"
" I'm probably ugly to everyone here though."
"He was only being nice to me at the concert because that's his job"
"We aren't even together and he's already breaking my heart"
"He sounds just like In-Su"
"I'm not doing that again"
As Yoongi wallowed in his shame and guilt, a big current came and washed him away. Yoongi tried to swim against it but it was too strong. He gave up, letting the strong current take him wherever it was going to. As Yoongi floated the voices of the words started to get more passionate and full of emotion.
"SHE ACTUALLY GOT TICKETS TO BTS!"
"HES SOOO HOT! FUCK!"
"IM GONNA BEAT HER ASS"
"IM NOT GONNA LET MYSELF DIE!"
"I GOT INTO SNU?!"
The current separated into 2 doorways. A light bright one and a dark foreboding one. The current decided to take Yoongi down the dark one. Yoongi stood up and with a woosh he had on sweats and a t-shirt.
Yoongi looked around. It was a gallery-like long hall.  At the front of the hall was two holes that sucked in words and thoughts. Yoongi turned around and read the sign.
 "The Miserable Thoughts and Memories of Jasmine Yasira Clarke". 
"I shouldn't be in here."
He turned around to leave but the door was shut on him. On the door the words "GO THROUGH." were scrawled.
"Ok... I'll just run through with my eyes closed and my ears plugged."