♡ 𝙲𝚑𝚊𝚙𝚝𝚎𝚛 𝚃𝚑𝚒𝚛𝚝𝚢 𝚃𝚠𝚘 ♡

                                    

                                          
I was in the middle of sobbing my eyes out, why? Because, Angel has to go back to New York. And I'm not going to see him again. He left this morning and I haven't stopped crying. It's been almost two hours. He said we're gonna make long distance work. But, I don't have confidence in that.
I've been in a lot of long distance relationships. And they never work. I heard my phone ringing and I picked it up. I was about to decline it until I read the contact. It was Angel. I sighed, my breathing was shaking. I answered it and put it up to my ear. "Hi." I sniffled. "Are you still crying?" He asked. "No, I just got my boyfriend of almost 4 years taken away from me and we're forced to do long distance and god only knows when I'll see him again, but no I'm not crying anymore. It's not affecting me at all." I said and started crying again half way through.
"I'm sorry, I can't stop this from happening. I didn't know until the morning I told you." He said. "It's fine. It's not your fault." I sniffled. "I'm about to go through a dead spot, but I'll call you again in a little bit. Alright?" He asked. "Mhm." I hummed back. "I love you." He said. "I love you too." I sniffled. He hung up on me and I got up. I went out to my kitchen and went in my freezer. I grabbed my huge container of ice cream and grabbed a spoon. I went back into my room and started eating it.
I turned my tv on and went to Spotify. I went to my sad playlist and started listening to it. (A/N: I'm currently listening to'Type Shit by Future, Metro Boomin, Travis Scott, and Playboi Cari😝) I continued crying while eating my ice cream and listening to my sad music.
After a few hours Angel called me again. I answered. "Hello?" I sniffled. "Jesus it's been 12 hours. You're still crying?" He asked. "Ask me that in a year. I guarantee the answer will be yes." I said. "What are you doing?" He asked. "Eating ice cream, sobbing my eyes out, and listening to sad music." I answered. "Oh, okay." He said. "What are you doing?" I asked. "Sitting in a car, doing absolutely nothing." He answered. "Mh." I said.
"Can we text instead of calling?" He asked. "Yeah." I said. I hung up on him and went to our messages.
A=Angel
K=Ace
A: Hi.
K: Hey.
A: I didn't want to say this on call, but I kinda want to hear you fucking yourself.
K: You want to hear me fucking myself?
A: Yeah.
K: that's kinda weird.
A: Fair.
K: I don't know. Give me a little while to get used to the fact that you aren't here anymore.
A: alright.
K: I have a genuine question.
A: yes?
K: Are you sure we can do long distance?
A: what do you mean?
K: I've been through long distance relationships before, and it never works out. Angel, I love you, and I love you a lot. I don't want to lose you at all. I want this to genuinely work for us. I don't want to break up ever.
A: I promise we'll work it out. I won't break up with you. Ever, I promise.
K: okay.
A: I love you.
K: I love you too.
I put my phone down and continued listening to my music and eating my ice cream. 'Lovely by Billie Eilish' came on  and I started sobbing. I don't know why, but every single time I hear even the first second of this song I immediately break down. I can't stop crying. Reasonably. I looked up at my tv and started sobbing harder.
I put the lid back on the ice cream and put it back. I put my spoon in the sink and went back into my room. I closed the door and laid back down on my bed. I went under the blankets and continued crying. After a little while I fell asleep.