Intro

                                    

                                          
This is some collection of thoughts which I collected from where ever I got to read, if you already read somewhere then don't accuse me for  plagiarism   becoz this is " Collection " as I said if some or other thing new strike my mind I will surely add!! 
Oh, I hope some day I'll make it out of here
Even if it takes all night or a hundred years
Need a place to hide, but I can't find one near
Wanna feel alive, outside I can't fight my fear
Isn't it lovely, all alone?
Heart made of glass, my mind of stone
Tear me to pieces, skin to bone
Hello, welcome home!! 
Aug, 2024
Hey,
Did you open it today! Had a bad day? Was it too much to bear that nothing else helped? 
I am sorry future me. Life's so cruel! Do you now have someone you can vent it out  to? 
If no then it's okay. I'll listen to whatever you have to say. 
Do you perhaps need a distraction to get out of that blankness you must be feeling. 
How will I not know what you want?For I am searching for somethimg similar right now. But all in vain.
I am feeling nothing too. I don't know what's happening! There is this darkness which consumes me, ready to take me in its embrace. 
My mind's blank like a new canvas ready to get rid of everything I had created before. And when it does paint something, it's either those mistakes I did, in red. Or those thoughts so dark, in black. 
But the worst is my heart, so lifeless as if feeling betrayed with what I did to it. As if it was in my hands! 
As if I am the criminal. Maybe I am. 
Everything's so dead. Nothing excites me. I feel like I'm drowning. 
Shouldn't I be easy on myself? Shouldn't I be forgiving to myself? Otherwise who would I turn too? 
What is right? What is wrong? I don't know. 
Parents say that I shouldn't be cramped up for so many days in my room. So I went out and finally saw what I'm missing. 
I don't know if I'm being dramatic. It's too much some days. Wasting my time, I understood I'm being so stupid! 
I don't like this idleness. This failure. No!!! 
This is not me. 
I'm leaving in few days.Yes! I am taking a leap. I have decided, I sm done with this.
If you have achieved what I'm dreaming today. Then know that I'm proud of you. And if you need something that'll keep you going. Then go back in memory lane.