Chapter Eighteen - Biilie

                                    

                                          
I'm currently hanging out with Zoe. We're just walking around and going to random places for fun. As we walk around a store, I see someone I sort of recognize. I mean, I can't put a name to their face but something tells me that I've seen her before. I decide to ignore it and move on. Just as we're getting ready to leave, I run into someone. 
"Oh, shit I'm sorry," I say. When I look to see who it is, it's the person who I recognized earlier. She smiles at me.
"No, you're okay," she says. "You're Billie Eilish, right?" I nod.
"Yeah, I am," I'm talking to her to be nice but something about her freaks me out. 
"Oh, so you are the walk who has been seen walking around with Y/n," I give her a weird look. "Oh, I'm Mia. I'm sure you've heard about me," I nod.
"A few things," I say.
"Thought so. Well, since I'm here I guess I should warn you about her. She's only friends with you so she can fuck you over. Well, more like fuck you for a little while and then leave you behind like you're nothing. If that's something you're okay with go right on ahead. Although, it looks a lot like you're already too deep into it," she says and looks down at my chest. I look down and see a small bit of a hickey showing. I put my hand over it. "Anyway, I'll leave you guys be," she says and walks away.
"What was that about? What is she talking about?" Zoe asks. 
"I don't know," I tell her, knowing exactly what she was talking about.
When I get home I just pretend that the entire encounter with Mia didn't happen. It was really hard not to think about though considering I pretty much knew everything she was telling me. I thought about telling Y/n about it. But right when I wanted to talk to her, she distracted me. That happens every time I want to talk about what we are or what's happening between us. It's like she knows and that's her way of avoiding the conversation. And it works every time.
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It's finally the night of the party that I'm having before the tour. Y/n, Claudia, Zoe, and Finneas are already here. It doesn't take long for groups of people to show up. Celebrities, people I know, people I don't know. That always happens at every party I have or go to. It starts with people I know and then people I don't know at all just show up. It's scary but whatever. 
I watched Y/n as she danced with Claudia. I smiled just looking at her. I know that she's drunk as fuck. She was drinking before some of the guests even arrived. She rarely ever drinks but when she does it's like she goes all out and gets just blackout drunk. It's a good thing that I don't drink. She's gotta have a babysitter.
"You alright?" I turn around and see Finneas. I nod.
"Yeah, just enjoying myself and the music that's loud enough to make me go deaf," he laughs and nods.
"Yeah, that sounds about right. But after this, you get to start packing for the tour and you're gonna be busy as hell for about a year and a half," I sigh. "What's wrong? Are you not excited?"
"No, I am. It's just that Y/n and I have been becoming really close... friends I don't want us to end up not talking once I go on tour," I explain.
"Why would you stop talking?" I shrug.
"I'm afraid I'll be too busy to respond," he chuckles.
"You won't be. And I'm sure she'll understand. That's if she's a real friend. I mean, you've always had Zoe. She hasn't left just because you were too busy to talk,"
"That's true," I turned back to find Y/n but she wasn't there. Damnit! "Hold on. Let me go find Y/n. Last time I had a party she disappeared and got really drunk," I laugh.
I walk around my house, making my way through the crowd of people. She wasn't in the kitchen or the dining room. I walked around the living room but she wasn't there either. Maybe she's upstairs. I walked upstairs to check my room, the guest bedroom, and the bathroom, but she wasn't in any of those places. Where could she be? I open the last door in the hallway to my second guest bedroom. My heart drops. Y/n and the girl she's with both jump out of the bed and look at me. My eyes fill up with tears. I turn around and start walking away as fast as I can. I hear Y/n saying my name but I ignore her. I make my way back down the stairs and out the front door. 
"Billie, please!" Y/n yells behind me. I keep walking in a direction. "Billie," she grabs my arm and I look at her.
"What, Y/n? What do you want?" 
"I want to explain,"
"Explain what? That I just saw you with another girl in my house? I know what I saw,"
"I know. I know, but..."
"But what? There's nothing to say, is there?" 
"Why are you so upset? It's not like we're dating," I look away from her and stay quiet. I bit my lip and sighed.
"I thought you were different. I know we're not dating but we fucked. Was I just another one of the girls you fuck occasionally until you decide to leave?" 
"No. No, you were never that," she gets closer to me but I back away from her.
"Then what the hell was it? Because it's really starting to look like that," she opens her mouth but closes it. "That's what I thought," I mumbled. "I think it's best that you go home. And don't bother talking to me again," 
"You don't mean that,"
"I do. I never want to see you again. Get out of my house," 
"Billie-"
"Get out of my house! Get away from me!" I yell. She stands there for a few more seconds. She sighs and walks to her car. I watch as she drives away. I immediately start breaking down. Just as I almost fall to the ground someone catches me. 
"You're okay. You're okay," I hear Finneas say. I sink into his arms and let him hold me. He doesn't question. He just lets me cry into his chest. Why did this happen?