Pt 31

                                    

                                          
A week passed. I tried my best to move on. Beomgyu introduced his girlfriend and surprisingly we both became best friends tho she knew about my feelings for Beomgyu. Taehyun has been avoiding me a bit lately and I guessed that he's trying to move on too but that's the only part that's hurting me.
"Junnie", I call Yeonjun. Currently we both were sitting alone on the rooftop since I wanted to stargaze. It was midnight. 
"Yeah?", He asks as he turns his attention towards me.
"I wanna give Taehyun a chance", I say and Yeonjun's face immediately lightens up.
"That's great. I supported you loving Beomgyu but I always felt like their was something special between you and Taehyun",he says making me smile but it immediately drops when I'm reminded of him avoiding me.
"What is it?", He says noticing your mood change.
"I'm afraid he doesn't like me anymore. He has been avoiding me a bit", I say with a sad smile on my face. I look up at the sky. The moon looking prettier than ever.
"You know why you moved on so quickly from Beomgyu?", He asks making me frown. I shake your head.
"Because you never loved him at the first place",He says. 
"What?", I speak out of pure confusion. 
"Tell me did you feel something special. A feeling you've never felt before with Beomgyu", He asks and I'm immediately reminded of the feeling I felt.
It was something I had never felt before. My heart would be pumping fast and I would feel breathless yet it wasn't associated with my health. I would feel the urge to hide yourself and scream in a pillow. My stomach felt weird but it wasn't the kind of feeling you get when you're sick. And the funny part about it is that I felt it with Taehyun not with Beomgyu. 
"I did feel it", I say and pause. 
"Are you sure you've moved on?", He says but I shush him. 
"I didn't feel it gyu", I say. He raises his eyebrows. 
"Then who?", He asks. 
"Taehyun", I say as everything hits me like tons of bricks. It was never Beomgyu who I loved. I loved Taehyun. I kept deceiving myself cause liking Taehyun seemed too real. I wasn't ready to face real. Dreams aren't always as good as they seem. Being with Beomgyu feels like a fairytale but with Taehyun it's all real and way better than I could have ever imagined. A smile makes it way to my face. 
"Lets go back", I say as I get up and happily make my way downstairs. Yeonjun bids me goodbye infront of my bedroom door. 
"Good luck", he whispers to me as he waves at me and goes away. I stare at him entering his bedroom and then smile at myself. 
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