Chapter 6

                                    

                                          
Same day
October 7th 2023
Los Angeles CA 
Megan
I pull up to the private airport and wait for Bey and her family to get here. In all honesty, I only agreed to go because it gave me an excuse to hang out with the kids. Truthfully the thought of having to watch Jay and Bey together for 2 weeks actually makes me want to throw up. 
I know I hide it well, but I've always been jealous of Jay, and the fact that he gets to call her his wife eats away at me. I honestly got in a relationship to distract myself from the jealousy I felt. I felt stupid for letting myself fall for a married woman and being upset that she was married, so I just learned how to act like it didn't bother me that she was married. 
When I was in my relationship, I never felt what I felt for Bey for him, so when he fucked up, it was so easy for me to leave because I never truly loved him, I loved Bey. 
I want to tell her, but she will never leave Jay even if she's unhappy, which is what I get for falling for a married woman. I want to be with her, I wanna wake up to her, and spend our days together. I want a family with her. 
I truly realized I loved her the day I got shot. She was the first person to come to the hospital and she stayed with me till I left, she also spent the next couple of days with me helping me through my emotions and helping me get things done, she was there when I needed her the most and always has been. She was even there with me every night during the trial, and the day the verdict was reached holding me and comforting me through it all. I want that all the time, and I will never get that. 
I remember when I told Bey that I was no longer with Pardi, she literally cried of happiness, she told me that she was so unhappy when we were together, she said it was torture seeing me with someone else. I'd do anything to see her that happy again, but I know that if she stays with Jay she will never be as happy, and I hate that. 
Little does Bey know, the pain she felt when I was with my ex, is the pain I've been feeling for years watching her live her life with Jay. I've been pushing these feelings down for so long, so that I can keep up such a good front, but every time I see her, it gets harder and harder to keep my feelings suppressed, and I just don't know how much longer I can keep hurting myself to see her happy, when I only get little sparks of that happiness in return. 
 "Meg, Megan, babe" I look up after getting knocked out of my thoughts, to see a very happy Beyonce. 
"Hey baby" I say, opening the car door. I get out and hug her tight, I would kiss her, but we are outside and there could be paparazzi. 
"You look really happy" she nods before leading me inside. "That's because Jay isn't coming, so it will be just you me and the kids" she jumps up and down grabbing my hand tighter. A smile creeps onto my face at the thought of it just being us in Paris, and how happy that makes her. 
"The kids are already on the Jet, so let me feel those lips" before I could even react to what she said, she smashed her lips on mine. I was gonna tell her that Julius was waiting on us, but then I remembered he's known about us for a while now, after we had sex in the car heading back from the Grammys. 
After a while Bey pulls away from my lips and gives me the warmest smile. "Oh, how I've missed you, this past week was torcher" she says before pecking my lips again. 
"I missed you too" she grabs my hand and pulls me to the Jet. 
"Bey my ba-" she cuts me off. "They'll get them, now come on the kids don't know that you're coming, and I wanna see their reactions" 
I'm really close with the kids, all in different ways tho. Sir is really shy, but he comes out of his shell once he gets to know you, he is so smart, and we both love playing games and watching anime together. 
Rumi is the little firecracker, and I would say we act the most alike, we love to dance and play dress up, we be having talent shows, we both love competing, and we are always arguing about something and it's so much fun. 
Then we have Blue who I've had a special bond with since the first day we met, like we had an instant connection and have been inseparable since the day we met at the New Year's party. Blue is like the coolest kid I know, she has my number so she will just text me out the blue (see what I did there lol). Blue and I talk about everything from friend problems to the crazy things we see online, and even about anxiety which is something that is just between us. 
Blue is like my best friend, so we hang out all the time just me and her, we shop together, she'll come over my house to play video games and play with 4oe, we also cook and do a lot of crafts when she comes over, since her mom sucks at both. She is such a smart kid especially for an 11 year old. I really do love these kids.
We walked up the stairs and walked in. "Ok stay right there" she whispers to me, before she walks all the way in, and I could faintly hear her talking. 
"Y'all ready for your surprise" I heard her ask before walking to me and pulling me to them. When the kids saw me, they all screamed. 
"Megan!" Blue yelled getting up to hug me. "Hey Blue Blue" I gave her a big hug. 
"Meggy" the twins yell running towards me hugging me just as tight. 
"Hey bubba, hey Bug" the twins were like 3 when we met, and that was the day I gave them their nicknames. Sir's is bubba because when I walked in their house, he was running around saying bubba with the cutest smile on his face, and Rumi is my bug because that day we were chillin in the poll when a little ladybug landed on her nose while she was wearing a ladybug bathing suit, and she died laughing, and since that day they've stuck. 
"What are you doing here" Blue asked with the biggest smile on her face. 
"I'm coming to Paris with y'all" they all start to jump around, and me and Bey just lock eyes smiling at each other. 
"Come on Meg, I have to show you this outfit I wanna get" Blue pulls me away from everyone and I just follow her. 
"Hey, no fair, how come you get Meggy first" Rumi complained. 
"Cause I'm her favorite" Blue fires back, Rumi just rolls her eyes, before sticking her tongue out at Blue, which was adorable, but when I looked over at Sir, he looked like his little heart was broken. 
"One second Blue" I walk over to Sir and crouch down in front of him. 
"What's wrong bubba" I ask while holding his little hands in mine. 
"I- is Blue Blue really your favorite" he pouts as a single tear falls from his eye, that I quickly wipe away. 
"Aww bubba don't cry, I don't have a favorite, I love all of y'all equally" I reassure him, which puts a smile on his face. 
"How about this, when I'm done, I'll come out here and we can watch My Hero together" his little face lights up and he gives me the biggest hug. I stand back up, and before I can go back over to Blue, Bey whispers in my ear. 
"Fyi you do have a favorite, and it's definitely me" I smile at what she says giving her a playful side eye before going back over to Blue. This trip will be fun.
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We finally get a look into Megan's real feelings about Bey, and it seems like they both feel the same way about each other, but Megan is better at hiding those feelings. Is it surprising that she has these feelings, and how do you think Bey will react to them especially with how good of a front Megan puts up. How do you feel about Megan's bond with the kids, do you think it will play a role in the future. Anyways hope y'all enjoyed and let me know how y'all felt.
Thoughts?
Megan
Beyonce