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L U K E
                          
The next morning I woke up with alex on one side of my chest, and Carter on the other. We all got showers last night because we were all covered in frosting. 
                          
I was the first one to wake up, but it was 6 a.m. So I decided to just lay there and hold the both of them. I placed Carter in the middle of us, and curled up to the both of them.
                          
"Good morning Luke." I heard, so I looked up, and saw alex looking at me. "Good morning." I whispered, and kissed her forehead. "Wanna get up and leave Carter here to sleep?" She asked, and I nodded. We walked to the bathroom, and brushed our teeth.
                          
I held onto her waist and walked behind her while we made our way to the living room. I laid down on the couch, and she straddled my waist, and sat down on my lap. I placed my hands on her waist, and rested my head on the arm rest. "You look really really cute." I said, and she rolled her eyes. "I just got out of bed." She laughed, and I shrugged. "Still cute." I whispered. 
                          
She leaned down and kissed my lips. Before I had the chance to kiss back, she leaned over and went to my neck. "Oh g- don't do this again." I whispered, and she smirked. "Why not?" She asked into my neck. "Because it drives me crazy." I whispered and traveled my hands down her back. 
                          
I was praying that Alex didn't move around too much because I did not want to have a problem in my pants right now. But she knew exactly what she was doing to me. 
                          
She kissed my neck harshly, and she rolled her hips once. I threw my head back and dug my fingers into her hips. "Alex. Stop before I- oh gosh.." I whispered, and she rolled her hips again. A loud moan escaped my lips once she kissed my sweet spot and moved on me at the same time. She knew she had turned me on, and there was a developing problem in my pants. 
                          
"Alex you have no idea what you do to me.." I whispered, and grabbed onto her hair. I was about to flip us over and finish for her, but I heard Carter's loud cry sound through the house. 
                          
I sighed, and she stood up off of me. "Better go fix yourself. You don't want your kid seeing that.." She said, and I looked down seeing the huge bulge in my pants. I covered it quickly, and walked into the guest bedroom while alex got Carter up. 
                          
I quickly fixed my situation, and walked into Alex's room. "Dada!" Carter cried, and tried wiggling out of Alex's grip. I ran over to him, and took him from alex. He was screaming crying hysterically, and I didn't know what was wrong. I bounced him up and down as I hushed him. 
                          
"Carter it's okay.." I whispered and his crying calmed down from screaming to small sobs. I sat down on the bed, and he laid down on my shoulder. I rubbed his back softly and he dried up his tears. 
                          
"I love you Carter." I whispered, and it was silent for a second. 
                          
"Love dada." He said quietly. 
                          
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Once Carter was put down for his nap, I cleaned myself up a bit, and walked over to Alex who was sitting on the couch. I sag on the edge of the couch beside her, and she tilted her head at me. 
                          
"What's up?" She asked. "Um. I want to ask you something." I said, and she nodded. 
                          
"Okay. So, I know I haven't been able to take you on a date or anything, but I really really like you, and you're a very beautiful girl alex. I haven't felt this way about anyone in a long time, and I'm so happy that I don't feel so empty anymore, and I want you to be mine. Will you be my girlfriend?" I said, and stopped playing with my hands to look at her nervously. 
                          
Her face dropped which only made me more and more nervous. "Luke.." She sighed, and I looked down. "I'm sorry. I shouldn't have said anything." I said, and started to get up, but she walked after me. "No Luke. It's just that, Ashton kind of asked me on a date earlier, and I wasn't sure where we stood, so I said yes." She said. 
                          
Is she actually being serious? After everything we've done? 
                          
"I understand. I'm sorry if I made this awkward. I hope you have fun with Ashton. He's a lucky guy." I said, and began to turn around. 
                          
"Luke. This doesn't mean I don't like you. Just let me see how this date goes." She said, and I nodded. I walked into the guest room, and laid down with Carter. 
                          
I felt embarrassed that I even asked her. She wouldn't want to be my girlfriend when I can't even afford to take her on a date. What was I thinking? 
                          
I traced random shapes on Carter's stomach. 
                          
"You're upset aren't you?" Alex asked, so I turned around. "No. I'm happy for you." I said, and she rolled her eyes. "Tell me the truth." She said so I sighed. "Yeah, it kinda hurt, but I don't want to hold you back from going out with Ashton." I said, and she lightly smiled. 
                          
"You're sweet." She said quietly, and then left the room. 
                          
The emptiness I felt before I met alex came rushing back. I thought she knew I liked her more than I should. I thought she knew I wanted her to be mine. After all of the kisses, cuddling, and after all the times she made me feel good about myself, she doesn't even know if she wants to be my girlfriend or date Ashton. 
                          
I told myself I couldn't compare to Ashton, but she told me I was perfect. She told me she liked me more than him. I just want alex to come and tell me that I'm worth it. I want her to make me stand in front of the mirror and see all of the good things in me because right now, I couldn't see anything good in myself. 
                          
Ashton had loads of money, and can love her and treat her like the princess she is. If she were with me, I'd be able to love her, but I couldn't give her gifts, or take her on special dates. I'd be the worst boyfriend ever. 
                          
I was stupid to think she'd ever want somebody she found on the streets. I was so stupid.