More Hanoi Rocks ‼️ I was debating on call it "never got to say goodbye" or "why didn't time stop" idk lol u can pick which one u like better :) VERY LONG FIC
Warning: Sad, mentions of death. If it triggers you please don't hesitate to talk to me or anyone. Love y'all! Very long fic!!
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Razzle was your fucking lover for life, you both grew up together and found love together. Childhood sweethearts are what your family calls you both. You were always there for Razzle whenever he was down or needed support. Luckily he was always confident and was the happy, lucky, never ending energy. He always lightened up the room with his smile, laugh and jokes. Such a lovely human, anyone would die to just be friends with him.
He knew all your flaws and insecurities like the back of his hand.
Your parents didn't like him at all when they first met him (you guys were just friends) because of how he loved playing the drums, kind of long hair and listened to music that was "bad" or "disgusting" which it wasn't. Eventually they were able to look past that and loved him like their own son.
Razzle asking you to be his girlfriend was 100% unplanned. It just happened randomly.
You both were just hanging out like the usual, it was 7pm (19pm) the sun was setting and you were in his lovely room. He was staring at you and blurted the question then blushed really hard when he realized what he said. "Of course Razzle, I would be the happiest girl to be your girlfriend." With that you both kissed each other with hesitation at first then slowly kissed each other it was like time actually stopped for the both of you. He gave you a necklace and bracelet so you could wear it and think of him.
4 years later and now he's in a famous band called Hanoi Rocks living and accomplishing his dreams. Both you never left each other side or doubted the love you both have. Your guys trust was the strongest it had ever been.
The boys loved you, and enjoyed having you around. They didn't care if you were some stranger who was just there for Razzle, they treated you like their own either as a sister or a best friend. Which made you feel even more love by the boys. Same for Razzle, they instantly loved Razzle the moment they meet him at a gig when he told them that he would be their new drummer. You all agreed no one could take him away from you all.
Oh how wrong you all were..
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December 2, 1984.
It was Razzles Birthday, he was so excited and so was everyone. The boys had big plans and presents they spent on him, though he said that they didn't need to because he could literally afford it himself. But they ignored him saying that of course.
Razzle was with his family (you were with him ofc) and invited the boys over to meet his family. Having everyone he loved in one household was the best birthday he could ever ask for. You all drank, ate cake and he opened present. He then played drums messing around with the new sticks Sami gave him. Mike gave him a new hat, Nasty bought him alcohol, Andy decided to buy Razzle a recorded just in case he brakes his other one.
At the end of the day Razzle said "This was the best birthday ever, I love you all so fucking much! I can't wait for next year hahaha." You all laughed and hugged him, kissing on his cheek. You kissed him on his lips and that was his unforgettable birthday.
But was his last one.
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December 8, 6:34 pm @ Vince Neil (Motley Crue) house. Los Angeles, California. USA
Hanoi Rocks were on the verge of success. So they decided take off in USA where they would officially be recognized more than ever. So they decided to hang out with none other than Motley Crue. they were all friends. Mike was exhausted and went back to the hotel which they guys understood and said their goodbyes.
Now currently, they were all drunk. You only had like 1 drink because who was going to drive them back? You sat next to Tommy Lee and Razzle was on the other end of you. You lost track of Andy and them long time ago. They were joking and getting heavily drunk, wasn't surprising.
Later on it was now 6:45 and Razzle decided to go with Vince to buy more alcohol. You knew it was very bad idea, but you trusted them. Hell they were full grown ass adult, you knew they wouldn't do anything stupid...but you doubted that. You tried to get Razzle to stay but failed. "It's okay, I'll be back before you know it. Stay here with them." He kissed your lips and forehead. You didn't get a chance to say bye.
"You know where Sami is?" I asked Mick and he mention he was sleeping in one of the rooms. I thanked him and went to check on Sami. He was sleeping peacefully, and you decided to check on him it was a natural habit. "Sami?" You gently shook him and he woke up confused. "Huh?" You sighed in relief. "You okay?" He nodded his head and you left him to sleep.
It was now 7:12 pm. Vince wife was worried about them, she had a bad feeling. You decided to just stay next to Sami while Andy and Tommy went to check on them. Few minutes later, you were half asleep next to Sami and Mick came in the room in shocked and sad. You were then fully awake and confused. He shakes Sami up and he made sure you both were wide awake. "There was an accident, we need to go to the hospital right now." Your heart dropped, you and Sami made eye contact and quickly left.
You both were very worried and tried to be positive and push down all the bad feelings. You and Sami comforted each other during the ride. Soon, when you both arrived the rest of the band was there. Mike, Nasty, and Andy. They went up to you both with sad news and heart-broken tears. "Razzle...passed away." Mike told you both. Everyone knew it was going to affect you the most. You stood there in disbelief, denial, anger, sad, and in pain. They all hugged you and comforted each other. Then you went to go see Razzle one last time and went to his bed side. The boys gave you privacy.
"You said...you would be back before I know it...now you'll never be back." You spilled your first tear barely being able to talk. "If only you stayed...why?" You had thousands and thousands of thoughts and things you wanted to say but held back. "I love you forever. Thank you for giving me the best life I deserved." You kissed his hand then his forehead and lips just like he did before he left. Soon the boys came in the room, Nasty hugged you and the boys stood next to Razzle saying their last goodbyes.
You didn't understand at that moment.
Why couldn't time stop again? Just this one time.
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So umm yeah...I hinted a bunch of times of Razzle passing away if you couldn't catch on. But hope you like it. I got sad as well reading it and writing.
Rip Razzle 🙏 we all miss you!
Also it was no one's fault when it came to Razzles death. If Hanoi Rocks can forgive Vince on what happened 4 decades ago then so can you. That's all I got to say! Be safe out there!
