Chapter 11 : Tris

                                    

                                          
He kisses me very sweet and I feel like a relief. All the weigh and apprehension are gone. This time we made love slowly, tenderly without this painful urge I felt before and I know I don't want to leave him again. Never.
We stay here for a long time, my head on his chest and him stroking my hair. We keep silent, just savoring these blissful moments. I try - Would you like to see Natalie today?
- Don't you think she will be afraid of me? He says worried. 
- No, I don't think so, she's not afraid of strangers if there's someone, she trusts with her. I can call Christina to tell her you're coming. Are you ready or would you need more time?
- Dauntless learn to confront their fears, maybe this won't be so terrible. Do you think I can handle a 3-year-old girl? he asks with a grin.
- She's a tough one but you stand a chance. I answer laughing. - Let's go then?
- OK. He says, trying to sound cool, but I know he's terrified.
How do I look he says? He wears jeans and a simple tee-shirt that shows his muscles. - Looks good to me, even if I think that maybe... without the tee-shirt...
- Hey stop it! He says laughing. Managed to make him smile for a minute...
- We have to go separately I explain. You take your car and I take the train. No one must know we saw each other today, and you have to remember that outside of these walls my name's Grace Bennet.
- You mean that I'll meet her without you being around? He says, definitely looking petrified.
- That's the best way to know how she feels about you. That's the day to be dauntless my love. I say, stroking his cheek. I'm sure everything's gonna be fine. Just let it happen.
I kiss him.
- Give me five minutes before you leave. I'll call Christina on my way.