how convenient.

                                    

                                          
i looked at him confused, i sniffle, 'what.. how.. what?' i find myself stuttering through my tears as i grab onto gustav's shoulders, slightly pulling away from his hug.

he sighed, 'come.' he grabbed my hand, then started to pull me towards the couch. we both sat down, and then he looked at me with a serious expression.
'you see, delilah...' he scratched his neck then continued, 'us vampires can really tell when something's off about a human.'
i wipe some of my tears off of my red puffy cheeks, 'what, how?'
he began to explain, 'we're smarter than the average human, and we have the ability to read people's minds too.' he clears his throat then leans in and whispers, 'i do have a certain ability that nobody knows about, though. not even the guys.' 
i lean in as well to get a better listen to his words, 'what is it?' i ask.
'you have to promise to not tell anyone and to keep your mouth shut.' gustav said as he put his pointer finger against my lips, secretly sending shivers all over my body.
i give in, 'i...' i pause for a moment, 'i promise.' he took his finger off of my lips then looked at me with his dark eyes.
'i can see glimpses of the future.'

you see, if me from 1 week ago heard this - i'd be bursting out laughing right now, calling gustav a liar and probably some other horrific names. but at this point, i believe him. he said it with such a serious and sincere tone that it full on convinced me.

why did i let this boy convince me so easily? if he told me to do anything, i'd do it. but, i don't like being bossed around by men. so why is he different? we only became friends yesterday...

'look, you should go now. 3rd period would be starting right now.' he said, his voice so quiet i could hear a pindrop. i gulp, but i don't disobey him. instead, i get up and go up to the door, open it then look at him once more before leaving. 

i check my calendar on a pinboard.

'fuck...' i groan to myself as i have biology. but you know what's worse? tom and bill are in my group, and i know i can't change my group. 

gosh, i guess i'll have to make do. i'm so focused on the fact that tom and bill are in my group, and i ignore that i also have to be in the same class as eva and evelyn...

i begin to start walking to class. the bell's already gone, twice as it always should. so that means i'm extra late, that's great.
 i get to the classroom, then slowly twist the doorknob as to not let anybody know i'm here. i enter, it seems people have already started on their project, that's nice.

until, i hear somebody call out my name from the back of the class...

'miss katz, how nice of you to join us!' mr. roberts says with a happy sarcastic undertone, i hate him so much. 'get in your group.' he drops the happy act, then points towards bill and tom, who were my group. i'm fucked. 

i gulp, and cross my arms.

i go and sit down on their table, but as i walk there - i see eva. eva's always the first one to notice me, and she's used to my little late shenanigans after getting into a fight with someone. but now, she won't even look at me.

 why'd i have to put myself in such a bad position, am i stupid?

i sit down, on the end of the table that bill and tom are sitting down at. they won't even make eye contact with me, that's just great.

 i engulf my let down hair in my hands, scrunching it, twirling it and playing around with it. huh. no matter how much heat damage i do to it, it still stays healthy... i find myself drifting off and zoning out into the distance.
 i can hear bill and tom making slight whispers to each other, but i don't really care at this point.

although beside all the tension between me and the duo, i can feel something else. 

trust me, i'm not a delusional girl - either. i swear, i can feel one of them catching glimpses at me. or could it even be both of them? i don't know, but all i know is that that's what my gut is telling me.

the bell has rung several times, my classes coincidentally having all 4 boys in them. it was hell. hell because i have unspoken drama with them, and also that the silence between it was killing me. can one of them at least speak to me other than gustav? to give me a chance to explain?
it's 6 pm after school, i find myself smoking another cigarette outside the school, the new pack clenched in my hands.
 i lean against the brittle brick wall, staring out inside the yellow-orange sky mixed with purple. the sunset was perfect, it took all my worries away. none of the girls have been talking to me, either. 

i knew they always put evelyn on top, it was so obvious no matter how much they tried to hide it to the point it was getting annoying. they could see how unfair she treated me, and i treated her the same within 3 minutes. so, that's a win for me.

again, i can feel that same tension. i can't put my finger on what, who, where and why it's happening. but my gut's always right, so something's definitely off. i take one more puff of the dimly-lit cigarette in my hands, then slightly lean up and look around, checking my surroundings thoroughly. 
but i know i can't just stop searching right now, i need to go further. something was watching me.

'oi!' i call out towards the shadows suffocating the other corner off the brick wall. then, my heart drops. the black shadows suddenly disappear into thin mist, how could that just... happen? i squint, then gulp. i'd tell myself to be tough right now, but with all that's happened today - i just can't.

i start to back up, terrified of who could be lurking within. nobody ever dared to walk around the school - and that's how i liked it. they either go out, or just stay occupied in their sad little dorms.
my heart then thumps as i bump into someone behind me. i quickly turn around with a squeal, looking up at the tall, towering figure above me.

'you look scared.' his cheekbones were sharp, his cornrows running down to his shoulders secured with a black headband. 

i barely know tom kaulitz, but i feel like he now knows every way to drain the colour out of my face.