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0.34 Stop questioning the feelings I have for you.





"AND THE FINAL team to advance to the 2024 UCA All Star National Championship 
is—" 
 Wait how did we get here so fast? It was like yesterday when we had our very first practice for the start of the school year— the start of my senior year and now here I am
 gripping the hands of the fellow teammates as we all bowed down our heads and closed our eyes hoping and praying the name of our school get called next 
 everything seem to have happened so fast, especially today's events I felt like I was watching everything through the lenses of someone else's sight, like I was watching someone's point of view, someone who wasn't me.
 I guess it started yesterday when I embarrassingly stormed out of Aubrey and Ice's place and went home to mine
 If i'm being honest, I don't know fully why I did that, perhaps I was overwhelmed with the anticipation for today's competition— overwhelmed with the thought of seeing my mother again and overwhelmed with the exchange I was having with Paige 
 Paige... 
 How did I even get so lucky to have someone like her in my life? that's like one question I will never be able to get the answers to 
 especially last night with how she showed up to my place begging for forgiveness after I felt like I was the one who was in the wrong for walking out on her like a child but she didn't think that at all 
 the girl looked so scared and nervous when I opened my door, I didn't know why— I should've have been the one who was scared because I thought I messed up things between us before they could even properly begin 


"I know I messed up, Kam— look I'm so sorry for hounding you like that about Lacy, I didn't know what I was thinking, actually I wasn't really thinking. I just heard that she wanted to see you and I guess all thought process went out the window at that moment— I'm sorry, I know you're stressed about tomorrow and I'm truly sorry for piling on top of all the shit you're already thinking about" Paige immediately started the moment Kameron answered her door 
 the cheer captain just stood there, lost for words at the blonde's sudden monologue but she eventually snapped out of her daze as she stepped forward and pulled Paige down to her height kissing her 
 "I'm sorry for getting upset" she whispers against her lips 
 Paige shook her head "you don't have to apologize for anything, that's my job" she says 
 when they entered Kameron's apartment, the two settled on her couch facing each other, the beating of their hearts echoing in their ears as they both tried to find the words to open up to each other once again 
 "I truly am sorry, Kam for acting that way, for causing you to feel that way— I was being stupid, I heard Lacy's name and I just... I started overthinking like a dumbass" Paige spoke, hands wringing together in nervousness 
 Kameron noticed the action and immediately grabbed the blonde's hands, tucking in safely in hers "...why? you know I don't care about her anymore, I don't have feelings for her anymore"